ako at ang sarili kong mundo

Matagal-tagal na din pala...

2007-07-02T17:42:00.001-07:00

... Since nung huli akong nagpost dito sa aking nilalangaw na blog... Kasi naisip ko sumunod sa bandwagon nung nasa (thanks to Ching's term) UP Ka-DILIMAN pa ako. Ayun, nag-create naman ako sa Blogspot at gumawa ng multiply... wahaha... Balak ko nga sa ika-100th post ko sa lahat ng blog ko, gagawa ako ng special entry, o well halliwell sana masunod... =p

Kanina sa Accounting, parang feeling ko, yung baked macaroni na kinain ko bitin... Parang na-exhaust dahil sa correction of errors. Ewan, feeling ko talaga dahil sa walang breakfast and I feel lethargic sa classes before Accounting... Hindi kasi masyadong value-adding yung isa, tapos yung isa naman... hayyyyyyy.... T_T.

Pero naintindihan ko yung lesson. Siguro yung energy factor yung nagpa-haggard sa akin. Basta. Hahaha... Kamusta namang quiz yan, error correction, straight problem for 10 points with matching distribution of profits and losses and problems multiple choice? Hahaha. Kelangan maperfect ko (target ang super-pataasin ang GWA, hahaha) at siyempre for validation na naintindihan ko talaga... Hahaha, ang kapal ko, at andito pa talaga ako sa e-lib, nagawa pang magpalipas ng oras... musta naman tayo diyan? And to think na may paper ako due tomorrow. Hahaha. Sige na nga super procastination blues tayo ulet... Bababasahin ko nalang sa sasakyan ang "Footnote to the Youth".

Grabe minsan nabobore na ako sa Accounting... lalo na kapag mahahabang problems. Kailangan ko na ding masanay mag-compute mentally at mabilisan. Kelangan sa CPA boards kasi time-pressured e. Hay, Goodluck sa iyo Jon Macaldo! Hahaha. =p

FA at tax next sem, super basa at advanced reading na. Kinontrata ko na nga si Princess na hihiramin ko yung FA buk nia for advance reading during the sem break, takot akong ma-probi e. Sana nga yung gusto kong prof yung mapunta sa amin. Ang kondisyon niya naman, e turuan ko daw siya sa level B qualifying exam. Musta naman tayo diyan? Hahaha.. Basta accounting, huwag lang LAW. =p

Hay, prelims na next next week, kailangan mag-perform ako ng maayos, para may foundation na ako sa grades diba? O siya, magbabasa na ako ng Literature para naman may magawa akong worthwhile and productive...

Of pressures in my BSA career (what!)

2007-06-29T23:09:00.000-07:00

Ako kasi yung isang taong ginagawa yung isang bagay dahil gusto ko, hindi dahil kailangan kong gawin. Of course there are limitations in a sense na kelangan may responsibilidad kang dapat gampanan...

I'm referring to the BSA life I have now. Pinasok ko siya kasi parang feeling ko bagay siya sa pagkatao ko. But minsan when professors are incessantly telling us, even the "magnificent" section 1 na kailangan super aral. Yes, tama naman sila sa aspeto na yun. Pero hindi naman ibig sabihin na it should handled as a pressure, not a responsibility to be enjoyed fulfilling . Ang pangit kasi ng viewpoint na you're doing and trying to accomplish something because you should do it for what, a reputation? Hindi ba mas maganda at mas rewarding sa sarili na ginagawa mo ang isang task or responsibility because it will be beneficial sa iyo at value-adding sa pagkatao? Hindi ba? Ayoko lang talaga ng ganun...

Yan pa yung isa sa mga dahilan na if ever (I reiterate, if ever lang ha), na makapasok ako sa section 1 ay mag-alangan ako. Ayoko kasi ng environment na you're studying and aming for high grades just because for a superficial reason na you needed to graduate as summa and the like, and to maintain the scholarship and all. Yes, it is very right to do such things because its not in any contravention to any law I know, but wouldn't it be nice na nag-aaral ka because you have the insatiated thirst for knowledge? Di ba mas fulfilling yun?

Ayun, so sa sino mang nakakabasa na BSA dito (AC05201 and AC05202, even higher batches), ponder about it. At tsaka walang pressure kung di ka magpapapressure ayt? Kaya aral for self-growth, not for higher grades, neh? Kahit secondary lang siya, it will suffice :)

Hay...

2007-06-25T02:00:00.000-07:00

Hindi ko alam, pero bakit may mga taong feeling mo may halaga ka sa kanila pero wala pala? Parang feeling ko tuloy ako lang yung nag-invest emotionally. Ewan, pero sa karamihan ng "inaakala" kong kaibigan ko, ganun yung nararamdaman ko sa kanila. Na parang nag-eexist lang ako sa kanila kung may kailangan sila sa akin, or kung may natext ako sa kanila... after that, wala na... I'm merely a tangible entity to them na parang andiyan lang at tintireat with indifference...

Or maybe ako lang yung ganung mag-isip? Or busy lang sila with their own hectic lives... Pero kahit na, parang feeling ko tuloy since wala na akong appearance sa mga eyes nila I was just treated like a memory in the pensieve na you'll look if you want to recall something... in other words, pag naalala lang..

Hindi naman ako galit, it's just my observation that some people continue to "move on" with their lives and fulfill whatever they want to do, and ika nga nila, set their feet to the journey they want to take... naks keser...

But I miss those people, I miss everything in them. And I still love them.

Hay badtrip!

2007-06-22T19:58:00.000-07:00

Parang feeling ko haggard na ako, wala pang formal na start ng classes. Or maybe dahil sa biyahe at super disjunct na schedule (M-S). Hay.

Parang alam mo yun, 9pm pa lang inaantok na ako. Tapos ang sakit pa din ng katawan ko kahit maaga ako natulog. Hay. Next sem sana maging maganda schedule ko, hehe. =p

Hay, dumalaw si Micha nung Wednesday. Nag-inquire siya sa Beda, UST, tska FEU at La Salle. Sana sa Uste xa or FEU para magkasabay kami ng break... para may JPIAn pa din akong kasama =p

O xa, logout muna ako, byers!

Lyrics again

2007-06-21T20:05:00.000-07:00

Goodbye Again
Vertical Horizon

I'm on the outside looking in
What do I see
so much of this left to begin
Where would I be
I'm on the outside looking in
Cover me through this night

I guess I don't know what's left to say
Hear me out
All of the dreams of yesterday
keep breaking me down
What's on the outside
can you say?
Am I getting carried away

Chorus
It's in your mind
It's in your eyes
So it's goodbye again
It's way past time
for one last try
So it's goodbye again

Goodbye again...

I'm getting on
what's the use?
You know how I get
I can't decide which is the truth
at least not yet
I got the feeling that it's you
what can be said alone in this room?
And now...

Chorus

Who wants you now?
Maybe somebody else
I'll wait around
Maybe you'll forget
you were never here
Maybe forget
you were never, never, here...

I'm on the outside looking down
What do I see?
So much of this cold in the ground
Where would I be?
I'm on the outside looking down
Cover me before you go...

Chorus

You're falling out
I'm falling in
so it's goodbye again

It's way past time
for one last try
so it's goodbye....

WHAT!!!!!

2007-06-18T01:36:00.000-07:00

You scored as Accounting/Finance/Marketing, You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in Accounting, Finance, Economics, Marketing, or related majors (e.g., Computer/Management Information Systems (CIS or MIS), Entrepreneurship, International Business, Operations Management, Public Administration, Real Estate, Risk Management, Sports Management).

It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it.

Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal.

Accounting/Finance/Marketing

81%

Mathematics/Statistics

50%

Education/Counseling

44%

Visual&PerformingArts

44%

Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health

44%

Psychology/Sociology

44%

HR/BusinessManagement

38%

English/Journalism/Comm

38%

PoliticalScience/Philosophy

38%

French/Spanish/OtherLanguage

31%

Physics/Engineering/Computer

31%

History/Anthropology/LiberalArts

25%

Biology/Chemistry/Geology

25%

Religion/Theology

25%

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lyrics

2007-06-15T20:15:00.000-07:00

kantang gusto ko ngayon... nakakasenti kasi minsan... naaalala ko yung mga memories in life... :)

Non Believer La Rocca lyrics
Artist: La Rocca
Album: The Truth
Year: 2006

She belongs somewhere else, away from my side
so run with what you got, and chase with what you need
i believe the faithful fell, didn't know their way back
so far away from home, but brother we're not alone
and i promise to climb back up here to you
waiting for this message coming through

is it mine? is it mine?
as she pulls inside
is it mine? is it mine?
how the lights turn white

do you take the non believers/ cause i'm a non believer
she belongs somewhere else, where pain isn't hope
and lives get every chance, not part of every plan
i believe the faithful fell, didn't know their way back
so far away from home, but brother we're not alone

is it mine? is it mine?
as she pulls inside
is it mine? is it mine?
how the lights go white

Musta naman?

2007-06-13T23:53:00.000-07:00

Musta naman? Ngayon lang ako ulit nakapag-blog ah... hahaha... Ayun, nagstart na ang classes sa FEU. Medyo nakakapanibago kasi BSA na ako (yuck, ang yabang, hahaha =p). Everyday ang klase, musta naman to the disjunct schedule? Hahaha... Dahil June 12 and pasukan at independence day, expected nang super trapik ang mangyayari. What? Super trapik talaga... As in 6:45 na ako umalis ng bahay niyan ha, tapos 10:30 ako nakarating... wahaha... Sakto nga e, pagdating ko paalis na sila Tere, Fatima, Marian at Suzainne (BSA na din ang mga adik)... Tinawanan nila ako. Kaya we'ver decided na lang na manuod ng sine since wala pa naman kaming treat sa sarili namin for passing the qualifying exam. Ayun, nanuod kami ng MR. BEAN'S HOLIDAY. Ok lang, kaso hindi siya yung simultaneous tawa...feeling ko nga yung may "tunay na sense of humor" lang yung matatawa e... wahaha...

Tapos nung wednesday super mega break ako, 4.5 hours!!!! kaya super tambay kung saan-saan... miserableng buhay ;p. ayun, nag-elib ako for the first time... sinusulit ko nga yung 12 hours per sem na ito... sayang ang miscellaneous fee diba?

Ngayon na-meet na namen Accounting 3J03 (Partnership and Corporation Accounting) prof namin... Ang bata tska ang ganda niya... ang unusual sa iniisip na super strikto looking na accounting prof diba? hehehe... super swerte na kaya dis sem? Gusto ko na kasing pumasok sa honors class e, gusto kong maging section 1. hahaha =p

Ayun, I've also asked sa OSACS kung may scholarship na available.. wala pa din daw... huhuhu ;(

Sana swertehin ako dis sem! May marketing na din pala ako... kung sino man ang may KOTLER, Principles of Marketing pahiram na lang... wala kasi akong pera e, mahal pa ng tuition fee =p.

O sha, mega-research pa kami sa isang subject ko, sana maging maganda ang sem nating lahat!!!!

OF being a Heretic

2007-01-24T23:23:00.000-08:00

I felt so lonely in my Chemistry class. I was in a jolly mood before because the subject was very light, until a person from the business center announced that the Academic Scholars are required to attend the convocation tomorrow. I was hoping that I will be included, however, in the back of my mind, I know I'm not qualified (due to the ban on irregular students). But then, the feeling of hope permeated my system during that moment - the announcement. My friend were called - Camille, Kristine and Irish, and then he left. I was completely in blank. I don't know what to say...

I felt the discrimination. I don't know what to do. I felt that I am a heretic - a creature who deviated from the norms of the place/niche/society he belongs. My case was very helpless - I need to be condoned by the UPPER YARD - haha...

Ayoko nang mag-English.... basta disappointed ako... PEro, bawi nalang next year... baka pwede na... Sayang ang free tuition and books. :)))

I don't know how to feel

2007-01-14T01:08:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, you just can't endure pain... It feels like you're ready to explode, any moment, anywhere. Lately, I'm experiencing overwhelming incidents in my life that came from simple events... it's so unbearable for me because the persons involved ar very close to me, very proximate.

Minsan talaga, napapagod na ako. Hindi ko na kaya... Totoo pala yung sinasabi nilang mas onerous ang emotional pain kesa sa physical pain. Mas masakit siya... Iba ang atake. Sa totoo lang, napapagod na ako. Kaya nga incoherent ang entry na ito e, kasi hindi ko talaga alam kung ano yung dapat kong isulat. Tama na, sobra na talaga.

Kinakaya ko pa dahil gusto ko pang maging masaya. I wanna be happy, truly madly deeply. hehe. Kaya nga susundin ko na lang ang payo ng friend ko, "na lahat ng tao mapapagod... kung magpapa-exhaust ka sa pagod mo, hindi ka na uurong! Kaya hanggang kaya mo pang tumayo, laban lang, sa huli, hindi ka na matatalo".

AJA lang diba? Tama ako?

1st ever post in 2007

2007-01-11T00:42:00.000-08:00

Dahil busy-busyhan ako this past few days, ngayon pa lang ako nakapag-blog.... Yay!!!! Hello 2007!! Sorry at late na akong nag-update.... Hehehe... Ito yung mga nangyari sa akin sa 2007:

Please Lift it Higher:

Ni-release ang prelim grades ko for this sem... I am confident sa exam results ko, kasi kahit papano, nag-aral naman ako (at the expense of not watching some of my fave TV shows, hehe). Kasi sa FEU, araw ng pasukan ang examination, unlike in UP na may special dates... hehehe... Ayun... ang highest ever ko ay Econ... yung ibang subjects, tulad ng Stat, Chem, Logic ay pare-parehong nasa (1.5-1.25)... ok pa naman to maintain my ***** standing.... hehehe. =p Ang accounting and law (supposed to be my majors), ay wala pa din results... Pakshet... This year, I wanna made sure I will achieve my target grades para makapag-qualify akong BSA. Ok, GC na kung GC, but this is my very last shot.... ok?

Addiction Galore:

Dati, sa PDA na ako adik... But when Princess Hours started, na-adik na din ako dun... Crush ko si Janelle, yung bida.... Humahanga ako sa ability niya to make people laugh sa mga clumsiness niya.... Kaya hooked na hooked ako at the expense of my school works... haha... gago ko talaga. Pero wala e, nakaka-adik talaga ang Princess hours...

Emotionally exhausted:

Yep, that's me... Secret na lang kung bakit... pero ang explanation: think of the exploded star... diba nagiging blackhole siya? yun na yun....

LSS everysecond of the day:

Pangarap Lang!!! i love this song... grabe... shet.... ang ganda-ganda talaga ng rhythm.... da best :)

ayun... ito ang unang update ko sa 2007... sana di ako tamarin, and sana maging maganda ang takbo ng 2007 ko and the years to come :)

Current Fave

2006-12-21T23:28:00.000-08:00

Ito ang current LSS ko ngayon... Hehehe...

Maganda ang rhythm ng kanta... napapaindak ako e...

Pangarap Lang
Yeng Constantino

Pangarap kong makarating sa buwan
At lumipad hanggang doon sa kalawakan
Nais kong humabol sa pag-ikot ng mundo
Sumabay sa awit ko

Sasakay ako sa aking pangarap
Basta’t ang kasama ko’y ikaw
May liwanag

Sasakay ako sa aking pangarap
Hangga’t ang laman ng puso ko’y ikaw
May liwanag

Sasakay ako sa aking pangarap
Basta’t ang kasama ko’y ikaw
May liwanag

Sasakay ako sa aking pangarap
Hangga’t ang laman ng puso ko’y ikaw
May liwanag

Kakainis talaga part 2

2006-12-10T23:38:00.001-08:00

Hay, natanggal si Yvan at Rosita!!!! mas deserving sila kaysa kay Irish at Chad... Miski si Ate Anisah na-badtrip e... hehe... Ka-badtrip talaga... Pipol, please vote wisely diba? Boses palang wala na sila kay Yvan at Rosita... Magaganda lang talaga hitsura nila...

Like this expulsion night na natanggal si Joan... I bet she is the star scholar nun... dahil na-eliminate siya, si Panky na (theory lang naman)... and then because sa so-called "pakikisama", si Davey ang nag-stay... Pero natanggal din naman...

My point is, objective ba sometimes ang PDA? In a sense na yung method of collecting population thru text votes... dapat kasi parang Phil. Idol... Owel, ganun lang siguro talaga ang process, but for me, sometimes, its not favorable... Nagiging "Rainier" phenomena ang PDA expulsion sometimes e, yung dahil mass appealing ang scholar (either gwapo or maganda, cute or pasaway), dapat PDA should put better means of testing how appealing the scholars are... huhu... Like for example, may percentage yung grades ng jurors then kahit 50-50 or 60-40 in favor of the madlang pipol diba?

Yun lang.... Congrats kay Mau Marcelo for winning the title of the 1st Philippine Idol... Nung nakita ko yung Finale e siya talaga vocally ang nagstand-out... Basta yun na yun.... Sana i-congratulate siya personally ni Sarah Geronimo total, "friends" daw silang lahat sa Star for a Night... ciao!!!!

Kakainis talaga

2006-12-10T23:38:00.000-08:00

Kakainis talaga!!!!

2006-12-10T23:11:00.000-08:00

I got 5 in our recitation... It was a group competition in the class for 5 recitation points. Our group has failed to give to our professor the right answer... it's because of the cynical groupmate who never listened to what we said. We have already instructed her that the 1st schedule is the market demand, and she never listened at all!!! I'm really pissed because we have told her that a dozen times... Or if she really has the so-called "common sense", she could tell and graph it well. Reklamo lang ng reklamo... she said: "Eh kasi mali yung alignment ng mga values, dapat yung market demand for that price nandun sa una, blah blah"....

TIP KO LANG: ATEH, kung may mata po kayo makikita niyong inversely proportional ang price sa quantity... ibig sabihin demand po yun.... Tapos dahil sa kanya... yung buong group namin, singko!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Arrgggghhhh.... I'm not being GC (or well, totoong GC-GChan na ako), pero the bottomline is, be trustful to your groupmate... After all, the fruits of the endeavor will be reaped by all of you, and the errs and its consequences will go to the group too... So no matter what happens , just trust them.

We trusted her, (excluding the other rowmates because they didn't contribute something) and that 5 is the result of our trust because of her unreciprocated trust... GRRRRRRRRRRR.... Wala na ang 95 sa recitation... :(

Sana, i-condone kami ng kalaban para walang 5.... Please.... :)

45 of the most random things you probably never needed to know about someone

2006-12-04T01:22:00.000-08:00

what's your name spelt backwards?

- oidacra zednalri odlacam

What did you do last night?

- watched TV.Sleep.Yun lang.

The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?

- tagal na... syllabus ng bus4j03? (business stat)

Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?

- Ikaw na-try mo na?

Last time you swam in a pool?

- Summer of 2006 in Valenzuela with my barkada.

What are you wearing?

- blue shirt.... aksholi di ako nagswim la sa mood, pero incidentally, nung nagplansem ako, yung blue shirt na yun yung suot ko...

How many cars have you owned?

- wala... mahirap lang ako.

Type of music you dislike most?

- Heavy metal... nonsensical rap na may ma-rap lang... yung mga ganung level.

Are you registered to vote?

- Di pa... if ever, di ko iboboto si richard gomez.

Do you have cable?

-Yup.

What kind of computer do you use?

- desktop

Ever made a prank phone call?

- Yup.. madaming beses na.

You like anyone right now?

- Yup, but that person don't like me... it's unrequited.

Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?

- pareho, para sosyalin.

Furthest place you ever traveled?

- Bicol... sabi sa inyo mahirap lang kami... that was 8 years ago pa.

What's your favorite comic strip?

- wala. i prefer harry potter books.

Do u know all the words to the national anthem?

-Yup!!!

Shower, morning or night?

- Night.. Para sensual yung feeling...hahaha... =p

Best movie you've seen in the past month?

- none... disappointed ako... kung so far sa aking buhay ang tanong... a walk to remember, HS musical, atbp.

Favorite pizza toppings?

- cheese, pepperoni, ground beef, bell peppers

Chips or popcorn?

- both.

What cell phone provider do you have?

- kelangan may ganito? kaka-snatch pa lang ng phone ko!!!

Have you ever smoked peanut shells?

- may ganun at pwede?

Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?

- Hello? Lalake ako...

Orange Juice or apple?

- Mango or Avocado...

Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?

- family...

Favorite chocolate bar?

- toblerone

Who is your longest friend and how long?longest?

- Junyl Aman and Geraldine Polo.... Mag-10 years na.

Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?

- Grade 5.

Have you ever won a trophy?

- Kinder.

Favorite arcade game?

- Legend of Legaia. Astig yun.

Ever ordered from an infomercial?

- Nope. Pag mayaman na ako... hahaha.

Sprite or 7-UP?

- Sprite!

Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?

- Oh yes... Nung UP lang wala.

Last thing you bought at Walgreens?

- San yun?

Ever thrown up in public?

- Salamat sa Diyos di pa.

Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?

- Pareho... Ganun ako ka-desperado... i will use the fortune to please my love one :)

Do you believe in love at first sight?

- Nope. Instant attraction yes...

SPONGEBOB OR JIMMY NEUTRON?

- HIndi ko sila gusto pareho... Naruto na lang...

Did you have long hair as a young kid?

- Never had...

What message is on your voicemail machine?

- wala kame ganun...

Where would you like to go right now?

- back in time... i would like to change my past... starting from my high school years.

Whats the name of your pet?

- wala na.. patay na yung dachsund na alaga namin before, pero name niya, MUCHAY.. hahaha.

What kind of back pack do you have, and what's in it?

- Accel na malaki with blue and silver colors... puro libro, mabibigat na libro...

What do you think about most?

- My past... may present and my future... my friends... the stupid things that i've done.. aksholi marami...

Grabeh!!!!

2006-12-04T01:06:00.000-08:00

Grabeh! Ngayon lang ako ulit nakapagblog... Before parang di kompleto ang aking mundo kung walang update na nangyayari... Hehe... :) Ayun, dahil nga kasi medyo nag-start na ang mga requirements eklat at wala din akong pera to blog... (walang IE sa bahay). Isa pa, tinatamad din ako minsan. Kaninang umaga, sa may Morayta, magboblog na ako, pero tinamad pa ulit... Hahaha... Nagsurf kasi ako sa net kaya tinamad na din. Ayun. Hahabaan ko nalang ang aking entry, okay?

Nung Semana Santa, may nangyari sa aking kakaiba... Creepy siya, I think, kasi it's not happening in a daily basis. Kasi, habang nanunuod ako ng PDA Uplate, tapos yung kapatid ko, nagp-PC, may narinig kaming strange na moan... It (kasi malay ko kung anong entity yun or kung entity nga ba), moaned for several times tapos nung minute ko yung TV... nawala ang mysterious moan.. Hala, kamusta naman yun a?

Then, after 2 days, may nagpakaba talaga sa akin na pangyayari... Biglang bumukas ang voltage regulator!!!! Waah, kasi nanunuod ulit ako ng PDA uplate, biglang may tumunog, pagkakita ko, biglang bumukas ang voltage regulator... huhu... pati yung monitor bumukas... Ano ba yun?

Nung naikwento ko yun sa tita ko, sinabi niyang baka nagparamdam yung lola Lumen ko... sa kanya nga daw e, habang nasa burol, gumagalaw papunta sa kanya nang NAKATAOB yung baso... Sa anak naman niya, gumagalaw yung sampayan... Waah... Pinag-pray ko na lang siya...

Lesson Learned: Huwag nang masyadong magpuyat...

P.S.: Naulit ulit yung moaning eklat nung 1st week ng classes, same time, same place... Whatchuhinkofit?

Twenty

2006-11-15T15:21:00.000-08:00

What will I do after 20 years? Natatakot talaga ako. May sumagi nga sa isip ko e, na baka ang barkada di ko na makita. Natatakot talaga ako. Natatakot ako. Sobra. Oo, sasabihin niyo napakatanga ko at kung anu-ano ang iniisip pero, you can't deny the fact that a person must continue the path he's walking, diba? AT malamang iba-iba kami ng landas...

Pero, ganun ang buhay, alam ko. May kanya-kanyang landasin at pangarap. Kaya siguro, dapat kong isipin na di naman ako kakalimutan at barkada pa din kami. :)

Jeepney

2006-11-13T19:33:00.000-08:00

Ako-isang ligaw na nilalang.
Naghahanap ng kasagutan.
Naghahanap ng kapayapaan.
Nakita ko ang jeepney.
Pumukaw siya sa akinng mga mata.
Ninais ko ang harapan ngunit
may nakasakay na.
Umupo ako sa dulo, para kahit
papano'y masandalan ko siya.
Bumaba ako sa akalang narating na ang destinasyon.
Ngunit, nagkamali ako-ako'y napabuntung-hininga.
Naghahantay muli ng panibagong masasakyan.
Walang huminto sa aking pagpapara.
Muli, ako'y nagpagala-gala.
Sinubukang buuin ang sarili.
Huminto muli ang mundo ko.

Dumating siyang muli, ang jeepney.
Pinara ko siya. Pinasakay niya ako.
Ninais ko ang harapan ngunit
may nakasakay na.
Umupo ako sa dulo, para kahit
papano'y masandalan ko siya.
Bumaba ako sa akalang narating na ang destinasyon.
Naligaw akong muli, nabigong muli.
Sana mapara ko siyang muli -
Malay natin, ako na ang nasa harapan, kasama sa
bawat paglakbay.

Simpleng Tribute sa Batch nila... :)

2006-11-05T23:03:00.000-08:00

Obviously, sila yung batch na naabutan ko nung naging BAA na ako. Pero, sila yung batch na hindi ko malilimutan kasi madaming JPIAns na "tanders" sa batch nila na napamahal na sa akin :).... kaya, bibigyan ko ng simpleng tribute... yung picture pala galing sa blog ni ate loraine :)

To the EOs na constant inspiration ko... Para sa akin, epitome kayo ng isang BSBAA student. Not only you excelled in academics but also in your curricular activities. Dahil dun, hinahangaan ko kayo... Yehes! Special mention na din kay MAK taba, yobab!!!! Wohooo!!!! Galing talaga.... Idol!!!! Libre....

Kila Ate ELay na lagi kong tinetext na "GO UP!!! GO 100%". Dahil ata sa akin kaya naging 100% kayo.... Hahaha... JOke lang... Sabi sa inyo, kaya niyo yan...

Galing niyo talaga... Sana ako din, maging CPA ;).

SPecial mention to the topnotchers na sila Ate Germee (love ni Mak, hehe), at nasa parehong posisyon ni Kuya Mak... ATe Lyzet, Go EXTE! Ate Lynne, Ate Karina na nakalimutan ko yung name nung formal interview, hehe, at siyempre, sa ayaw namang magtop na si ATE GILLIANE SAY!!! Yehes, proud si Kuya Janrich!!! hehe...

SALUDO AKO SA INYO!!! GO 100%

P.S. :Though sinabi ni Kuya Mak na may ilan pa ding din nagtake ng boards, 100% pa din... :)

P.S.S.: Libre kuya MAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kung Miss Niyo KO, Mas MISS ko KAYO!

2006-10-31T00:40:00.000-08:00

The title speaks for my feeling right now... and it will continue to live...

Ganun talaga... when we make choices, may tradeoff yun... Pero nakakalungkot isipin na malaking bagay yung ipinagpalit mo sa pansamantalang relief. Pero matutunan ko din na maintindihan ang mga bagay-bagay, someday.

Tapos nanakaw pa cellphone ko... Yehes, kamusta naman ang 113 songs sa mp3? ang mga special txt messages sa mga EOs, at kung anu-ano pa? Pati ang contact details ng mga friends? At ang magandang cellphone? Parang yun yung buhay ko ah, yung nakasanayan kong buhay. Tapos, nawala na lang. Kaya nga siguro dapat enjoyin na lang ang bawat moment, para hindi ka magsisi bandang huli. Okei?

Hay 2nd sem na, ang tagal na rin...

4-5 years pa... Sana makabisita ulit ako diyan... :) Promise, itatry ko.

Huhu

2006-10-28T03:55:00.000-07:00

Nawala ang cell phone ko!!! Huhu!!!! everyone na nakakaalam ng number ko, pakitxt brigade siya... i really need it... yun lang ang tanging paraan para ma-communicate ko kayo... huhu...

nawala siya sa SM... I don't know why sa videoke-han pa talaga nawala... Please everyone miss call or itext niyo number ko baka makunsensya pa siya talaga... huhu... please... baka taon pa bago ako makabili ng bagong cell phone e... please... please...

Madaming iniisip.blogspot.com

2006-10-12T20:40:00.000-07:00

Nakakainis ang law exam! Sobrang hirap niya... Imagine, 400+ articles ang kasama tapos 25 items...75 ang passing,which compels us to have a score of 19-25, which is very impossible to happen. Hay life, you're so complex... is it?

Nakakatuwa lang isipin na may tendency tayong lahat, yep, na hayaang mangyari ang isang bagay na lumipas, lalo na kung pagod na pagod tayo at kung umatake ang problema, kung kelan mahina tayo. Nakakalungkot isipin ang mga mangyayari, lalo na kung masama at di kaaya-aya. Ewan. Sa tagal ko na ba dito sa earth di ko pa ba to marerealize diba?

I didn't review for the whole dept exam week kasi yung final project ko sa computer e nasira... I have to repeat yung 9 na segments, so I didnt have a choice but to do it. Pero, di naman ako nagsisisi kasi uber dali lang ang Math, at binarbero ko lang yung the rest. Sa law, wala akong palusot pero I felt sleepy kahapon + PDA kahapon so nakatulog na ako... hahaha... Godbless sa akin diba? Alam ko na yung concepts, pero shet, ang hirap ng situational talaga... O my god... please, sana mataas, or kung hindi naman, pasado, para pwede pa akong mag-qualifying exam for BSA... nakakaiyak... :)

Tapos, wala lang... namimiss ko na ang JPIA... Aksholi, everyday. Lagi ko silang iniisip... at naiisip. Magakaibang gawain ba yun?

Iniisip ko kasi, after 5 years or 10 years, magiging ganito pa din ba ang feeling ko towards sa mga taong yun? Kasi, sobrang nahihirapan akong di ko sila kasama, though 2nd sem at summer ko lang sila nakilala ng mabuti, which is so disappointing, kasi sana 1st sem palang magkakakilala or close na talaga kami. Mamimiss ko ang ingay nilang lahat... pati mga planning sems. Sobrang mahal ko sila, pati ang org. Never talaga akong naging malapit sa isang org... kaya pala ang mga alumni ganito ang feeling kapag may tribute, now i know why.

I miss you guys, pero siguro ganito talaga... Kelangang tanggapin. Sana magkita-kita pa tayo (which is so possible, yet rare, diba!)

LOVE YOU JPIA!

-walang sense na entry.bow. =p -

Crappy sem

2006-10-05T18:07:00.000-07:00

Hay, sa wakas, patapos na ang sem na ito. Last stretch na next week, kasi finals na!!!! Comeon, walang tulugan ito ulit. hmph... hibernating mode na talaga ako.... gusto kong kainin muna ako ng lupa for a break... Biro mo, next week, buong weekdays, may exam ako!!! Shet to the 8 subjects... I really need a nice GWA for the scholarship, and yes, I'm pressuring myself kasi I won't let my brother to stop next sem. Argh, Financial problems sucks too. wenk ;(

On a lighter note, matatapos na din ang paghihirap ko sa leche kong sked. At least, next sem, ako na ang pipili! I decided na instead na 24 units, 21 na lang, Haggard e... Kasi, 8 subjects may different requirements. Minsan, kahit madali lang, kung magsasabay-sabay, mahirap din yun noh. E isa akong dakilang procastinator. Haha.

Tsaka updates sa acad status (though lam ko namang walang interested): babay uno sa math na ako... I missed the quiz which is so frustrating kasi, nakalimutan kong gumising ng 4:30 am. Kasi ba naman, wala pa akong matinong tulog, what can you expect. Sayang ang keserness ng midterms. Sana pala di nalang ako natulog nung araw na yun, para kahit sleepy, di naman zero, diba?

Disappointed ako sa Econ. We're so pressured and all, tapos ganito lang?/ Comeon... sana di nalang ako nageffort para sa lecheng contest na yun.... I'm so pissed off... Yun ang dahilan kung bakit ala ako tulog at na-zero sa math... so gets? e mas importante naman ang math dun, dahil prereq siya ng accounting na kukunin ko sa stay ko dito... and ang econ, kahit bumagsak ka diyan, makakagraduate ka pa din on time, kasi tatlo lang sila no?

BUwisit ang sem talaga... aayusin ko na sked ko...

Sorry guys, pero I'm still in the process of moving on...

yun lang...

p.s. happy birthday jik!!!! libre ka naman jan!!!!

p.s.s. di ako makakaattend ng induction ball and plansem, sadness ;-(

p.s.s.s yehes, matutuloy na ang sm escapade with my hs friends!!! wohoo!!!!

p.s.s.s.s. sana ok ang baa batchmates sa finals nila!!! kaya nio yan!!!!

p.s.s.s.s.s. godbless din sa terminals! go 100%

Of responsibilities, disappointments, stress, worries, at kung anu-ano pa

2006-09-23T02:43:00.000-07:00

Ok, so lahat ng ito naranasan ko from Saturday last week till this day. So let me make a kwento (yuck, konyo? haha).

Saturday evening: Preparing for the Econ video and powerpoint presentation. May pasok ako non ha, mind you. I was awake almost 24 hours, from 5:30 till 4:00 am ng Sunday. 9 to 4 am tinapos ko yung effax ng powerpoint (making sure it looks the bomb) tapos inusisa ang movie maker para magamay ito. Ang stress at responsibility as an appointed leader ay talagang ang sakit sa ulo. Buwisit.

Sunday morning till 10 pm: last touches sa eklavu ng ppt. nag-encode at nagprint ng paper namin na inilagay sa scrapbook (na biglang pinagawa). Naligaw ako, leche sa bahy nila Timmy. Nakarating na ako ng Balintawak nang hindi ko namamalayan. Pareho kaming tanga nung drayber. Nakarating na ako ng 7 kila Timmy, kumain, tinapos ang scrapbuk. Nanginterview. 10 na ako nakaalis.

10pm-3am: Started placing the data and making presentation. Stressful. Kamusta?

Monday: natapos ang video. Ayaw i-burn ni kuya Joey, nagpabili muna ng coke sakto (leche ka!) tapos ayun, nagburn na ng cd. 3pm natapos wihtout lunch. dumating sila junyl ng 4 at nakaalis na ako ng 4:30. arrived in morayta ng mga bandang 6:30. nabasa ako ng ulan. di ko na nadatnan si timmy. shet. what a waste of time, sana nagpunta na lang ako sa FI ng JPIA (miss them). Frustrated, disappointed, angry, stressed.

Tuesday: Presentation sa class. on the spot ito, kala namin ibibigay lang ang cd ateh. shemay. they liked the video. even the ppt. i was delighted and overwhelmed. we became one of the 2 finalists. so happy talaga. then, pinarevise ni ma'am ang video, gusto niya english ang annotations. (feu's an english speaking place, ya know.) more work for me, less sleep pa. shet., wait till Friday. Binawi ni Junyl yung mouse na hiniram ko. I cried dahil may project ako sa History. wala pa akong matinong tulog, stressed na stressed na ako, ganito pa.

Wednesday: woke up 7:38 in the morning. didnt attend the natsci class. math1 1st quiz zero (goodbye flat one, summa dreams), dahil 9:38 na ako nakarating ng FEU. nakakafrustrate. i worried for the scholarship... hay... minadali ang history project. forgot to put jose laurel. announced recitation on saturday at nagalit pa si sir ..... kulang sa tulog. tried to revise videos, pero yung transitions lang sa powerpoint nagawa ko. slept around 12:30 am. sleepy and stressed pa din, worried too.

Thursday morning: waited for vendors. walang internet sa lugar namin, can't search for the pix that i will put sa video. it took me 9 hours before i could search. nasira diskette, bumalik pa ako sa tungko. started working around 8 am, finished 2 am. stressed.

Friday: hindi nakapag-aral sa law, shet!!!! umabsent sa computer dahil hindi pa naburn cd, 9am pa ang bukas. so mga 11:30 na ako pumasok. hay lyf. napagbintangan pa ng isang tangang driver na hindi nagbayad. shet. napahiya at worried. then econ class: a big revelation: WE'RE DISQUALIFIED!!! PUTANG INA!!! DAHIL SA FORTUITOUS EVENT NA PAGKAWALA NG INTERNET, WE'RE DISQUALIFIED SA COMPETITION! OMG! AFTER SLEEPLESS NIGHTS AND MONEYS THAT WERE USED, GANITO LANG! sinabi mo pwede ng friday, its so unfair... nakalimutan mo lang. hindi na namin kasalanan kung napahiya ka sa colleagues mo, its your fault dahil mayabang ka. disappointed, angry, shitty. dumagdag pa yung bading na yun sa business center. NO ONE BOTHERED TO AGREE WITH WHAT I FELT.

SATURDAY: LAW RECITATION. haven't studied well. hindi ako natawag... yahoo ba o oh no? oh my god... di pa tapos ang kalbaryo ko?

bakit hindi pa nagtapos ngayong linggo? sabi nga ni leo, mali si daniel powter. its a shitty bad week for me... everything's ruined. and now, madami pa akong gagawin, debate, speech, assignments, readings, eklavu leche!!!

well, harapin yan, buhay studyante. so it is very false to assume na ang dali ng buhay estudyante. isa ito sa mga dahilan kaya umalis ako ng UP e, everyone assumed na kaya ko kahit nasa bahay ako... haha, nakita niyo na? lahat tayo napahamak...

hay

2006-09-15T05:39:00.000-07:00

kainis talaga. ang hirap ng presentation. nakadepende dito ang portion ng aming final grade sa econ. sana we win the competition. hy... competitive ako... ang problem kasi ay wala pa akong pera. sumabay pa itong pangit na ito. hmph.

nakakainis kung may ibang taong umaasa sa iyo tapos bigla kang iiwanan sa ere. ayoko lang ng ganun.

challenge night na ng jpia. pupunta ba ako?

may blog si lica : licamae.blogspot.com... link nio!!!!

Start of Something New

2006-09-11T21:55:00.000-07:00

Living in my own world
Didn't understand
That anything can happen
When you take a chance
I never believed in
What I couldn't see
I never opened my heart
To all the possibilities
I know that something has changed
Never felt this way
And right here tonight

This could be the start
Of something new
It feels so right
To be here with you
And now looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart
The start of something new

Now who'd of ever thought that
We'd both be here tonight
And the world looks so much brighter
With you by my side
I know that something has changed
Never felt this way
I know it for real

This could be the start
Of something new
It feels so right
To be here with you
And now looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart
The start of something new

I never knew that it could happen
Till it happened to me
I didn't know it before
But now it's easy to see

It's a start
Of something new
It feels so right
To be here with you
And now looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart

That it's the start
Of something new
It feels so right
To be here with you
And now looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart
The start of something new
Start of something new
start of something new

Why I love coming back

2006-09-11T21:30:00.000-07:00

Ang entry na ito ay inspired by Jay Jay Perlado, former President ng JPIA.

Hindi talaga ako social person. Never akong umaattend ng mga social gatherings, kahit nga ata clan gatherings, hindi ko na-appreciate. Siguro dahil masyado akong nakulong sa aking so-called "protective bubble" at tsaka may natitira pa sa aking kahihiyan (akalain mo). Pero I never thought that during my sophomore year, may magbabago noon. At yun ay ang JPIA.

Siguro marahil ang iba sa inyong nakakabasa ay madalas puro JPIA at buhay ang aking nilalagay sa blog. Dahil ang JPIA talaga ay isang bahagi ng aking buhay na hindi ko maiwawaglit. Kasi sobrang blessed ako dahil for once, naging vocal ako sa mga nararamdaman ko at natuto akong makibagay (na never kong ginawa sa tanan ng buhay ko) sa mga tao. May iba ding nagsasabing hindi malinaw kung sino yung pinagsisilbihan mo, kung yung organisasyon ba, mga tao (members at mga beneficiaries, i.e, future scholars ng LEAP, mga Botocan kids, underpriveleged students, BSA students, etc). Pero ito lang ang masasabi ko, wala akong pakialam. Hindi mahalaga sa akin kung sino yung direktang nakikinabang sa pawis na nilalabas ko tuwing may ine-exert akong effort para sa isang aktibidad; ang importante, somewhere, sometime, may makikinabang sa aking paghihirap. Oo nga't bilang isang akademikong organisasyon dapat nakatuon ang JPIA sa mga akademikong aktibidad ng miyembro nito, ngunit para sa akin, ang kabuuang pagbabago at paghubog sa kanilang pagkatao ang dapat na gawing thrust ng JPIA. At iyon ang aming ginagawa at pinaninindigan.

Isa sa mga rason kung bakit gustong-gusto kong bumalik ng JPIA ay dahil sa mga tao. Never akong matagal na nagtatagal sa isang lugar. Pero kapag nasa tambayan ka na, ibang kaso na. Dito talaga ako nakaramdam ng bahay sa labas ng tahanan. Ang saya. Shet. Kaya nga ngayon, nakakalungkot mang isipin, wala na ako sa bahay na yun. Pero I'll be keeping the fun memories that I have experienced forever.

Pangalawang reason kung bakit ay nagkakaroon ako ng time para sa sarili ko. Sa bahay, parang limited siya kasi ang daming tao. Kahit madaming tao sa JPIA, parang wala lang, it's your life. Hindi tulad sa ibang lugar na dapat matuto kang maging composed, sa bahay na matuto kang sumunod, sa tambayan, nawala na lahat ng limits na yun, I became myself, kahit may iba't-ibang tao pa din. That's why I love coming back.

HULI sa lahat, kung bakit gustong-gusto kong balik-balikan, ay dahil sa pakiramdam ng kasiyahan. Ibang klase sa JPIA. Kahit sinong JPIAn ang tanungin mo, ang saya sa organisasyong ito. Haller, Hall of Famer? Yung iba nga e, when there's a commitment from some other entities, they would prefer JPIA. Kaya nga love ko to e, maraming taong devoted. :))

Ikaw JPIAn, sana you love coming back. :)

Objectivity

2006-09-06T02:42:00.000-07:00

Hay, masaya talaga ako this day kahit may bumungad ulit na problema sa pamilya. Ayun, some of my midterm grades were released so the day for me was so far...uhm, pleasant.

Uno na ako sa NatSci at Math!!! woohoo. tapos, 97 sa midterm exam sa history at whooping 91 sa law... (see previous posts why ang saya ko na sa 91.) From 59 prelim grade to this is it na midterm grade na 84=2/1.75 i think, sinong hindi matutuwa... at kapag nagpatuloy pa ang ganitong levelling, haha, baka maka 1.25 or 1 ako sa law!!! wohoo... that's why i love na our terror but good prof na si Sr. Ramos. :) (this paragraph's about my gcness, haha).

Then I remember, ganito din ako sa isang subject noon sa UP. Uno standing tapos dahil sa pagkatulog sa class (due sa 2 days na sleepless), paano ba ito, tama bang sabihing napag-initan?, naging 4. one of the major causes why i was kicked out of the course. hindi ko na niremove kasi futile ang move na yun, kukutyain na nga niya ako, possibly, tska di ko pa din maabot yung cut-off. then i remembered objectivity. is it a ground enough for a student to give a good grade because he's so charming and appealing and on the other hand,an ugly grade sleeping in the class because he's got so many problems and stressful work? nanghihinayang ako talaga dun. ewan. pero sabi nga ni jill de dumo, wag magpaka-succumb. yehes, ang lalim ng word. =p wala lang, naalala ko lang.

sige, babu na,me babasahin pa ako sa LAW! hahahahaha.=p

Please

2006-09-03T01:46:00.000-07:00

Please pray for my brother... kasi may dengue siya... kelangan din niya pala ng blood... ayun...
BTW, ito na yung photoshop product ko... yiheee!!!

i really need a break

2006-08-31T22:40:00.000-07:00

hay andito ako ngayon sa isang computer shop malapit sa FEU. and it's so boring... lecheng araw to, nanakit ulo ko at dahil na rin sa exam sa computer na ngayon ko lang naaral... hay... isang exam pa ngayong araw at 3 bukas... tapos 2 exam sa tuesday, submissions ng paper at presentation sa rizal at econ... shemay kurdapya... i nid to have a high GWA dis sem para maimpress yung institution na pag-aaplyan ko ng scholarship... 4.5 hours pala ang break ko...shet..

sabi nga nila, ang problema, hindi mawawala.... for the last 2 years, samut sari na ang problema naming magpapamilya... ngayon, meron ulit... sana makayanan ko ulit... kasi ngayon, sobrang pagod na pagod na ako... gusto kong may makausap na kaibigan... yung talagang kaibigan (tunay at nahahawakan)... I've been communicating to GOD and hoping answers could be found... sana, masolusyunan namin ito...

PAGOD NA PAGOD NA AKO WITH ALL THE DEPRESSIONS AND THE PROBLEMS... I NEED A FU**IN' BREAK...

Tararun 5

2006-08-25T16:10:00.000-07:00

Exaj ang nangyari kagabi! Punyeta talaga. Kala ko makakauwi na ako kagabi ng maaga dahil wala ang prof sa Rizal, at para makabasa na ako ng law. Ayun, hindi pala, hehehe....

Obvious naman na connected sa Tararun ang nangyari kagabi... Leche!!!! Ginagawa yung daan sa Bulacan. Taena talaga. Biro mo, 8:45 ako nakarating sa may Bankers Ville, tapos, andun lang kami for almost 2 hours? kamusta naman yun? so nagmarathon ako mula Malaria hanggang sa terminal ng tricycle... Kamusta, tararun ito!!!!! haha...

ayun, ito, ang aga ko sa morayta.6:30 palang andito nako! shemay... ang sakit ng ulo ko...

sana...

2006-08-21T20:25:00.000-07:00

hindi ako mapangmata at hindi ako sanay na minamata. kasi masakit parehong masituate sa parehong sitwaston na yun.

ano ba talaga ang problema? minsan kasi nasa tao talaga. kung nakikita mong mas magaling ka, nakikita mo ang kabuktutan nila.kung mas marami naman ang mas magaling sa iyo, ikaw naman ang mapupunta sa side ng so-called "underdogs". ang maganda sa kuwentong ito ay pareho na akong napunta sa ganung mundo... at feeling ko, kaya ko namang mag-conclude.

sa hs kasi, pangit talaga ang sistema. hindi tulad sa science schools na alam nila ang math and science ng mabuti, sa exclusive at yung mga tipong montessori ay magagaling sa literature and arts, even sa social sciences, ang school ko, ay well, very low ang standards. however, masaya ako dahil dun ako nanggaling, sobrang ang saya ng hs life. tuwing nagmamath kami, gusto ko wag nang ibalik ang topics, kasi malulugi kami pagdating sa huli (though di dept.mental ang exam dahil 1 lang section namin), at dahil pagdating sa college, baka magulantang kami. and so did it happened. some of my classmates barely passed the simple college algebra from their respective schools, some failed, and I, with Rhodora, became disqualified sa honors... we dropped math 17, na "standardized" algeb and trigo... we were so shocked and worried the first time we saw the "real math". biro mo, hermo na, wala pa kaming tamang background sa math? comeon...

ayun nga. kaya sobra yung pagsisikap ko sa sembreak. buti natabi kong lahat ang math reviewers. nagsanay ako until 2nd sem, i got a shocking 1.75 sa math 17. then 2.5 sa calculus (dahil 7 am yun at bulacan pa ako, hindi ako sanay. haha. tsaka summer, ang bilis, at dahil wla din akong alam sa calculus noh?) ayun.

then naging baa na ako. ako nalang ang tumuloy sa 4 na nagbalak (norlyn, mae, ako at c rhoda). though c mae talaga ang may potential, pang-baa talaga ang dunong niya. imagine, summa standing pa din siya hanggang ngayon? at hindi umaalis sa 1-1.1 range ang gwa niya every sem!!! haha...

feeling ko, kaya sobrang nanibago ako nuon, dahil hindi kami sinanay na tumayong mag-isa nung hs. kahit pinipilit kong umalis sa ganung sistema, hindi pa din, dahil ang mga dapat gumabay sa amin, hindi nagampanan ng maayos ang responsibilidad nila.

ngayon, asa feu na ako. hindi ako naggegeneralize. siguro dahil free block ako at irreg ang mga kasama, mga old returning kumbaga. nakikita ko ang kalagayan ko sa kanila dati, yung tipong hindi makawala sa ganung sistema sa kanilang pagkatao. at sana mawaglit na sa kanila yun.

minsan tuloy, naiisip ko, nasa tao talaga e. kung nagtransfer na lang ako, nung elem pa, sana di ganito. nasa toot pa din ako at minamahal ang mga toot friends at JPIA. sana andun pa ako...

ngayon, alam niyo na... hindi sa binababa ko ang tingin ko sa sarili ko, pero yun talaga. at ngayon, parang lumelevel ako ulet... hahahahaha (go summa!!!!)

bye...

LSS

2006-08-19T02:30:00.000-07:00

Kamusta naman? I thought na sunod lang sa uso ang gagawin ko dahil High School Musical nga... but no... kamusta??? Ang ganda pala ng Breaking Free na kanta... ito nga yung lyrics:

BREAKING FREE

(from the movie High School Musical)

Troy:

We’re soarin’, flyin’

There’s not a star in heaven

That we can’t reach

Gabriella:

If we’re trying

So we’re breaking free

Troy:

You know the world can see us

In a way that’s different than who we are

Gabriella:

Creating space between us

‘Til we’re separate hearts

Both:

But your faith it gives me strength

Strength to believe

Chorus #1

Troy:

We’re breakin’ free

Gabriella:

We’re soarin’

Troy: Flyin’

Both: There’s not a star in heaven

That we can’t reach

Troy: If we’re trying

Both: Yeah, we’re breaking free

Troy: Oh, we’re breakin’ free

Gabriella: Ohhhh

Troy: Can you feel it building

Like a wave the ocean just can’t control

Gabriella: Connected by a feeling

Ohhh, in our very souls

Both: Rising ‘til it lifts us up

So every one can see

Chorus #2

Troy: We’re breakin’ free

Gabriella: We’re soarin’

Troy: Flyin’

Both: There’s not a star in heaven

That we can’t reach

Troy: If we’re trying

Yeah we’re breaking free

Gabriella: Ohhhh runnin’

Troy: Climbin’

To get to that place

Both: To be all that we can be

Troy: Now’s the time

Both: So we’re breaking free

Troy: We’re breaking free

Gabriella: Ohhh , yeah

Troy: More than hope

More than faith

Gabriella: This is true

This is fate

And together

Both: We see it comin’

Troy: More than you

More than me

Gabriella: Not a want, but a need

Both: Both of us breakin’ free

Chorus #3

Gabriella: Soarin’

Troy: Flyin’

Both: There’s not a star in heaven

That we can’t reach

If we’re trying

Troy: Yeah we’re breaking free

Gabriella: Breaking free

Were runnin’

Troy: Ohhhh, climbin’

Both: To get to the place

To be all that we can be

Now’s the time

Troy: Now’s the time

Gabriella: So we’re breaking free

Troy: Ohhh, we’re breaking free

Gabriella: Ohhhh

Both: You know the world can see us

In a way that’s different than who we are

Basta, when I heard the Asian version, sana si Nikki Gil na lang yung kumanta. Angat talaga ang boses Pinoy... the song is connected on assertion kasi there may repeat on the lines kasi. Ayun. So parang sa 3, Nikki was the better one. I'm not being biased or anything regarding this point, It's just that she's got the "recall"... Gets... Parang alam mong siya yung kumanta, and that's what the song needs. Kasi you need to be heard so the world will know, you're breaking free.

Of course... I know that im...

2006-08-15T00:46:00.000-07:00

I am The Fool

The Fool can signal a new beginning or change of direction - one that will guide you onto a path of adventure, wonder and personal growth. He also reminds you to keep your faith and trust your natural responses. If you are facing a decision or moment of doubt, the Fool tells you to believe in yourself and follow your heart no matter how crazy or foolish your impulses may seem.

The Fool also frequently messes up the numbers he inputs into forms. Maybe you should try it again...

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What tarot card are you? Enter your birthdate.

After all

2006-08-15T00:21:00.000-07:00

After all that I've been through, I'm still alive and kicking. This proved that I haven't gave up. I tend to be very weak for the past few months because of what happened to me. My so-called "new life" has given me the chance to contemplate about life as a whole without overlooking or repudiating tiny, salient pieces ... after all, these tiny pieces constitute millions of things that we constantly hate and love.

Of course, to err is human. Albeit we are given this powerful organ in our head, we tend to overlook some things we have considered initially as irrelevant in our supposed to be "destiny" or the path we should take. However, we should, and forever be, thinking about how these things, these minute details of our intricate life can contribute to our existence. Because of our assumptions and frailties, we are submerged into a situation wherein we forget that we should strategize, not just plan for what we are doing next. Because thinking for the next step won't necessarily lead us to a safe or desired track/path. Sometimes, we tend to decide hastily without thinking. And that err is stupidity.

SO, what do I mean with all these prolix ideas? We should never haste about things or decisions in life. We should take life seriously, slowly, and enjoy every day that comes or will come... after all, we can never be like the cats who have these "nine lives" that we could exhaust. Though we could never have an eternal life (as I wish that won't happen), we should just keep on smiling and never lose our faith and connection in HIM... you know what I mean. He helps subtly and blatantly. And that's the funny thing. You are very much cornered by these two aforementioned dimensions. Maybe I lost track because for so many years I have logged off in our connection. I became stupid.

And as the line of an unfamiliar song goes, "and after all that we've been going through,... ( i completely forgot some of the words, hahaha)", I need to recuperate. And now, I'm continuing what I have started months back... A decision I could never undo, unless a genie lamp appears, hahaha... =p

UPDATES

2006-08-10T19:17:00.000-07:00

* tapos na ang reporting sa NatSci. Medyo nagisa kasi late ako (insert leader here) tapos late dumating si Geo... Tapos ginisa kami ng mga kaklase ko kasi compelled silang magtanong to earn extra credits... Yung umiba, intellectual questions, tulad nung why do you think in the polar regions have cold temp... yung iba shitty, katulad nung what is atmosphere na parang Ms. Universe yung pagkakatanung, may samang irap pa.. Yung mga varsity, hindi nakikinig, nagtanung ng how do oceans were formed.... shet!!! itanung ko sa kanila yun, alam nila sagot? I answered through chem, through combinations of diff atoms.... chola!!! gaganti ako kapag magrereport na sila....

* Nagalit si Law prof... kasi ba naman, when we were discussing Art 1236 ( about extinguishment of oblig.) sinabi na sa context/provision na basta, nakalimutan ko na, basta dapat may something about that would benefit the debtor... shet, dapat full payment by the amt. of 10K yun, coz it will benefit the debtor as his obli will be extinguished, may sumagot ng partial.... oh no, nagalit at nagsermon si sir. hindi na siya naglesson. as a result, instant quiz about 1191-1231 next mtg. plus 1231-1251 reci next wednesday!!!! Shet!!! masisira na talaga body clock ko (insert gcness+scholarship habulan) hahaha....

* nagugutom na ako,

*fp launch last monday. sayang di nakapunta... pipilitin ko sa fp.

* 1.5 prelim grade ko sa history... haller, sayang, kung nag-aral ako, instead na 78 sa prelim exam, mga 90 plus yun... susme, gc!!!!!!!!

*babay.... :)

GO JPIA and UP sa boards review!!!!

Hindi ko talaga alam

2006-08-07T19:20:00.000-07:00

Habang sinusulat ko ang entry na ito, nanginginig ang kamay ko, pati ang sikmura ko... well, not with the usual thing dahil gutom ako, but with new feeling... actually, di ko alam kung ano yung nararamdaman ko...

I have read a friend's blog and just to find out something tungkol sa buhay niya... mamalita ba. Well, basta. Siguro, ang nangyayari sa akin ay sort of na selos. Pero hindi naman kasi ako important dahil friend lang talaga... dahil sa JPIA. Pero siguro, ganito talaga ang nararamdaman ko dahil I want to know them all more, not just to be included in their barkada, but just to know who they really are.

Ngayon lang ako naging ganito. Since I entered college. I want to explore myself. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang isusulat ko, grabe, nanginginig talaga ang kamay ko sa nararamdaman ko... Sabi ko nun, I won't be close to anyone else sa UP, except Doray. But I was wrong, very wrong. Tila pinarusahan ako ng Diyos. Nang makilala ko ang Hermo block, I can't afford not to go with them (Norlyn, May, Kezia, Lia, others). Iniisip ko kasi noon, dahil iba-iba kami ng kurso, after a year, hindi na kami magkikita-kita. And that happened. Since nagshift na ako sa BAA, hindi ko na nakita si Norlyn dahil AS-based pa din ang subjects niya, Mae ganun din. Kezia, Econ na, Lia, though BA, hindi masyado dahil may Ba friends din siya. Masaklap pa is, di na kami nagkikita ni Rhodora, except barkada bonding na thrice lang nagmaterialize. Si Cleiza, a former Hermo block (salvaged by change of mat), ang naging kausap at kaclose... Stat, Econ, JPIA.... hahaha...

Then JPIA arrived... ayun, ang daming nakilalang tao. Sa sobrang dami, I resisted at first to get close with them. Hanggang ngayon, I regret that move, kasi nahiya talaga ako nun. I swam into a pool na punong-puno ng diverse, yet cool people. And from the moment I went to AO/AP... My life has changed.

Then I left UP... also, that has turned my life against the path I should be heading. Wala e, nagkaganito pa... ayun, so the chance to get to know more ang mga taong ito ay nawala. Kulang ang second sem at summer... Kulang na kulang... Nanghihinayang lang ako at ganito ... hindi ako nanghinayang for the move ng pag-alis. Nanghinayang ako sa mga tao, especially the JPIAns.... sobrang mahal ko na sila...

wala na yung panginginig ng kamay. the last tym na nangyari ito ay nung umiyak ako nung planning sem.

wala lang...

2006-08-02T02:47:00.000-07:00

Marami akong napagisip-isip... Paano kung hindi ako makuha sa scholarship... sabi kasi ng friend ni Apple, more likely than not, hindi nakukuha ang transferees sa Academic scholarship, pero I'm hoping talaga, wala kasi kaming pera this year. Buwiset. Isa pa yung tungkol sa kapatid ko, unfair for him dahil lang sa akin, e vocational course ang kukunin niya, kaya kailangan, umiyak ako sa admin para i-grant sa akin, if ever na makuha yung scholarship. At yung Metrobank din, para baon na lang ang gastos, o diba?

Isa pa, yung mama ko... wala na siyang tulog dahil kelangang magproduce ng pera... I worry about her health. Lord, please ingatan niyo po si Mama...

Ayun, at sikret na yung isa... basta....

Anyway, 73 ako sa 1st exam sa law, at nakakainis ang phrase na "at once", dahil nga sabi ko sa inyo, 55 minutes lang ang dapat na 1.5 hours, minadali ko ang mga subquestions... mula no.3-5. Ayun, yung 4/5 subquestions ng number 4 na worth 4 pts each, di ko nalagyan ng at once... pakshet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -10 percent ako, meaning, dapat 83=2.. ang 73 ata ay 5... shet... grabe ang system ng grade, dapat mga 2.5 yan. Pero happy ako dahil 2 weeks akong wala sa class at I'm one of those with high scores (may ibang 57)... o diba, hindi dahil lumiban ako, alam niyo na (late enrollment at diarrhea)... Babawi ako... keser until finals na ito...

Here comes the GC mode in my system na... shet!!!! iniwan na kita sa baul... hahaha =p

Ano nga ba ang talagang nangyayari sa akin

2006-07-26T02:15:00.000-07:00

I'm an entity that is inconsistent... pwede sigurong isa akong tubig....

dahil minsan lumilipad ako sa taas... sa sarili kong mundo... at bumabagsak nang malubha.

dahil may nagpapabagsak sa akin...

ewan... hala.. minsan, naiisip kong burahin ang blog ko...

tama na, wala ako sa mood magshare... nagyym ako

Humahaggard din naman ako...

2006-07-22T02:39:00.000-07:00

Hay nako, kakatapos lang ng aking eksamen sa 7 subjects, 3 kahapon at 4 ngayon. OK lang siya in general, kaso nga lang, nakakapagod at nag-adjust ako sa maraming bagay: una, time-pressured ng sobra-sobra. Sa UP kasi, thru acctg exams, parang sanay akong 3 hours ang exam, kamusta ngayon? 1 hour lang ang Oblicon... shet, mindali ko tuloy yung about sa forfeit ng isang obligation, basta, yun na yun... Grabe. Actually, ang nagpahirap lang sa akin ay ang law, talaga.. dahil sa oras na yun. I could answer yun ng sobrang ayos within 1.5 hours na regular time kaso pasaway ang prof e, ganun talaga. =)

Sana ayos ang prelims, para may investment na ako sa grade. Nanghihinayang lang ako sa Math dahil sa 50% na assignment (remember, nagka-diarrhea ako?). Dahil mahigpit si teacher, hindi ako binigyan ng konsiderasyon whether mamatay ka na... Tuloy, di na uno ang standing ko sa prelims.... Sadness... Napunta kasi yung plus points ko sa quiz na absent ako dahil sa diarrhea ko... Oh yes, diba, two birds in one stone? Haha... =p

87 ata ang grade ko, if ever, mga 1.25/1.5... at nakakahiya... uno na naging bato pa... buwisit...

HIndi na ako pupunta sa BACBACAN for the sake of letting go... pero hindi ako bitter, magpapahinga na lang ako... nahaggard ako sa lecheng exam, 4 in a row, kamusta? I miss the UP system talaga, everything... yung tipong walang pakialamanan, free-zone from the systematic homeroom approaches (class officers), basta, madami pa... What i really like ay yung nawala na yung pagiging GC, competitive ko, at mas naintindihan kong, mas marami pang mahalaga than getting good grades... (JPIA insert here).

wala lang..sige, babu... back to school sa tuesday! :( results ng grades, everything... =p

pang-networx level ito!!!

2006-07-19T02:21:00.000-07:00

"Kung ikaw ba naman ay bumabangon na diyan at tumatatayo na e di wala nang problema."- Nanay

ito siguro yung ekspresyon na bumabagay sa buhay nating lahat. yung parang ekspresyong kumakatawan sa pagkatao ng sinuman sa atin. malamang sa una, ayaw mo pa dahil gusto mo munang pagbigyan ang iyong sarili sa kawalan nito ng pahinga mula sa isang magulong mundo sa isang kahapon. parang ganun din siguro sa mga problema, parang hindi tayo makabangon dahil sa pagod na binigay nito sa sistema ng ating katawan. tila ba'y parang wala nang bukas matapos mangyari ang isang unos.

o dili naman kaya kung tayo's sadyang tinatamad lamang. ayaw harapin kung anuman ang binigay ng tadhana o ng buhay para sa ating lahat. isang makamundong hangarin. pagmamaramot ng sarili upang mapanatili nito ang pangkasalukuyang kalagayan.

o kaya nama'y sadyang wala lamang, tila isang desisyon upang maging payapa lamang ng kahit pansamantala ang sistema sa limitadong panahon. isang desisyong walang pangmatagalang bisa.

ano kaya ang naging rutang pinili ko? maaari bang mapagod habang nagpapahinga, o nakakapagpahinga habang napapagod. marahil walang lohika. pero para sa akin, isa lamang ang kabuluhan ng nabanggit na ekspresyon - desisyon sa paggamit ng ating oras.

mababatid nating ang oras ay isa sa mga pinakamahalagang elemento ng buhay, at ito'y hindi natin dapat sayangin, kung hindi, may posibilidad na mawala ang ating pinaghirapan, o wala na tayong rason upang maghirap pa. kahit ano pa man doon, kelangan nating pangalagaan ang oras, dahil maaari itong manakaw sa atin.

at yun marahil ang hindi ko nagawa. hinayaan ko ang sarili kong magpakalunod sa kung ano man ang naranasan ko, problema o kasiyahan. dapat alam natin kung paano tayo gumamit ng oras, para sa pagtulog, hindi na natin hanapin ang pahinga, at bagkus, bumangon para sa isang panibagong buhay. sana, maging leksyon sa akin ang mga nangyari sa nakaraan, para magampanan ko nang mabuti ang aking responsibilidad sa pag-iingat sa aking oras. tuloy, nawala na ang aking panahon para sa mga taong gustong-gusto kong paglaanan nito, at kahit kailan, hindi ko na iyon makakamtan.

Whew...

2006-07-19T01:44:00.000-07:00

Hay, nakapagpost na din ako... Namiss ko na... =p parang kelan lang... baliw ka talaga...

updates!

* exam ko na sa friday at saturday! sana galingan ko. what i fear most is yung oblicon... karir ito, dahil 2 linggo akong wala!!! (not my negligence but the default of the institute).

* exam ngayong araw na ito ng 114 batchmates! go guys, i reiterate! I BELIEVE IN YOU!!!

* naiinis pa din ako sa pagiging antukin ko. sana matanggal na ito.

* dumalaw ako sa jpia tambayan. i met archie's and leo's sponsee na sina arithmetico at dreo, respectively.na-bitter tuloy ako, oh well. ganyan ang life. gusto kong mamit ang sponsee ni lica, ang unique ng name, choerleen... =)

* na-miss ko ang jpia, at parang gusto kong tumambay muli.

* nahihirapan na sa pag-uwian, kaya itatry at my very best na makuha ang scholarship.

* contented, but never happy. pwede ba yun? actually di ko alam ang nararamdaman ko.

* excited na ako sa fp launch (sana mapuntahan)... fp people, ill try my very best talaga.

* networx, o networx, inaabangan na kita... lica, you swore to give me one ha!

* magpupuyat mamaya for law, okei?=p

* may job na si jik! go sponsor! im so proud of you... =)

What Will Matter

2006-07-14T23:06:00.000-07:00

Michael Josephson
Founder of the Josephson Institute of Ethics

Ready or not, some day it will all come to an end.
There will be no more sunrises, no minutes, hours or days.
All the things you collected, whether treasured or forgotten will pass to someone else.
Your wealth, fame and temporal power will shrivel to irrelevance.
It will not matter what you owned or what you were owed.
Your grudges, resentments, frustrations and jealousies will finally disappear.
So too, your hopes, ambitions, plans and to do lists will expire.
The wins and losses that once seemed so important will fade away.
It won't matter where you came from or what side of the tracks you lived on at the end.
It won't matter whether you were beautiful or brilliant.
Even your gender and skin color will be irrelevant.
So what will matter? How will the value of your days be measured?
What will matter is not what you bought but what you built,
not what you got but what you gave.
What will matter is not your success but your significance.
What will matter is not what you learned but what you taught.
What will matter is every act of integrity, compassion, courage, or sacrifice that enriched, empowered or encouraged others to emulate your example.
What will matter is not your competence but your character.
What will matter is not how many people you knew, but how many will feel a lasting loss when you're gone.
What will matter is not your memories but the memories that live in those who loved you.
What will matter is how long you will be remembered, by whom and for what.
Living a life that matters doesn't happen by accident.
It's not a matter of circumstance but of choice.
Choose to live a life that matters.

Hindi pala ako na-kaput

2006-07-14T22:54:00.000-07:00

Hehe, akala ko na-kaput ako,haha... make-up quiz lang yun para sa mga mababang iskor, since 97 ang lolo mo (yehes! thanks to apple sa tawag), hindi ko na kailangan. Hindi naman ako nakikipagkompitensya dun sa Koreano kong kaklase kasi 1 lang talaga target ko, not the perfect score. :)

Ayun, nag-report ako sa History kanina, okay lang. Kinabahan ako dahil baka gisahin ako ng prof ko. Ok lang naman, kahit nagto-tongue twist ako kanina, haha... Kainis lang binara niya ko kanina, sabi niya, "encomienda is not just a division, its a right to bla bla bla..."... Ma'am. di pa po ako tapos, okei? =p

Naalala ko kagabi yung tinext ko kay Lica, wala lang. Madamot ba talaga ako?

Kahapon pala, pumunta akong UP. Nagbigay ng cheque sa UJF. Ayun, si Kristy lang ang nasa tambayan. Yun, nakakamiss silang lahat. Sobra... I love them so much. At bago na ang logbook, bibliya ito? haha... Sumulat ako, malamang... Yung "Will You Be my Friend" ni James Kavanaugh. Ayun, nagpaparinig... hehe..

Nakakainis ang mga kaklase ko sa Rizal, mga pakshet na mga cliquish. Kobrador sa kadayaan sa quiz. Kamusta, nagbubuklat ng notebook? Hahaha... =p

Sige, lumiban na ako ng law class kasi sobrang nahihilo na ako, nag-update lang ako... Magbabasa pa kasi ako mamaya e. Ciao! Go Exams week! =p

Na-Kaput ako

2006-07-12T00:03:00.000-07:00

Shet, 2nd time ko nang ma-zero sa Math... Hindi kasi ako nakapasok kanina. May report ako sa History e since I have assumed na madali lang ang topic sa Math at walang gagawin, hindi na lang ako pumasok kanina. Hay, puyat na nga ako dahil 1pm na ko nakatulog, tapos ganito pa? Haha. Nagising ako ng 3:45 at sinagutan ang isang item na nakatulugan sa Nat Sci. Ayun, so keri lang at pumasok. Dumating ako sa FEU ng 6:30 am, at dali-daling gumawa ng report sa manila paper. After the class, diretso na ako sa computer shop to encode and print my report, then ipapa-xerox. Pakshet, inabot ako ng 1 oras dahil dun. Pina-xerox ko at hinanap ni Marycon, kagroup. Then, nung nagtext siya nasa Jollibee daw siya. So dali-dali na kong pumunta dun from the 5th floor ng Science building... Anyhoo, buti naalala ko, may nakakatuwang nangyari sa elevator. Nung binuksan ng elevator boy yung pintuan, then pumasok na kaming lahat, nasaraduhan siya!!!! hahahaha, kamusta, tanga ito? hehe...

Ayun, so minadali ko nga ang pagpunta sa Jollibee, dali-daling nagsulat sa manila paper. Kinakabahan din si Con dahil hindi pa niya masyadong naaaral yung report niya. Ako medyo naaral ko, pero di ko pa nasusulat, kamusta naman dun? Ayun, we decided na pumunta na lang sa room. Sa room, habang di pa dumadating si Ma'am, dali-dali kong tinapos yung report ko, then comes the big catch: SUSPENDED AND CLASSES! After the shitty panicking and di pagpasok sa Math for this, walang pasok? Ang laki ng sakripisyo ko. Yung 1st kaput ko ay dahil may diarrhea ako nung araw na yun, yung ngayon, dahil sa History report. Hay, Babawi ako sa exam, ang tanging dasal ko lang hindi sana ako careless. Sayang yung last quiz dahil 1 lang mali ko, giving me 97, which is sayang dahil so far perfect ako before that aforementioned quiz. Sana mataas as in MATAAS! ang makuha ko sa Math, and all subjects... GO Scholarship! Hahahaha... =p

Ayun, feeling ko, may natutunan ako dito, never forget to drink a coffee. Kung di sana ako nakatulog kaninang madaling-araw, e di sana 100 ulit, at hindi ako na-kaput. Hehe. =)

Kahit ganito lang ako busy pa din

2006-07-11T05:42:00.000-07:00

Dahil nga sa medyo sort of highschool-ish orientation ng *toot* sa amin, medyo pa-easy easy ako nung una... mga tipong kahit barbs na ang insights ko e sige lang, total oo lang si mam, hehe... Ayun, Initially, I was getting so bored at my subjects, given that some of these were really the ones I have taken up sa UP. Lecheng IABF di pa crinedit. Kung crinedit lang sana ang Math 17 ko, e di sana magboboard exams sana ako (hopefully) by 2010! Shet... Anyway, tama na ang pagka-bitter. So yun nga. Medyo hs-ish... nakakainis kasi di naman ako sa ganung level. So yun.

But now, I do feel some pressures, especially sa Oblicon. Its not that nahihirapan akong intindihan ang mga concepts like negotiorum debito at force majeure, its just that 2 weeks akong absent dahil sa aking enrollment. Pakshet to that negative externality. I missed 20+ articles, and yet, 7 pa lang ang nababasa ko... Then nadagdagan pa ng mga 15 pa... that sums to 32 articles... Problema pa daw yung prof sabi ng ibang nakausap ko, dahil 3 or 5 lang biniibigay niya. Kamusta to the laude dreams? Nakakahiya kung hindi ako mag-laude, kelangan, para naman kung hindi na ako kunin ng nanay ko sa London, at least, mabango-bango naman ang resume ko, diba? Malay mo, kung papalarin, pumasa at mag-top pa sa board (asus, asa pa!!! hehe). Then next week na ang prelims, at I haven't reviewed dahil di pa tapos ang coverage!!! waah... 8 subjects sa 2 araw, that really, is a kamusta naman... =p

Then, marami pa kong gagawin. Reports, projects na HS-ish, as I have said earlier. Hay.. mukhang delinkwente pa yung mga kaklase ko, e ayoko pa naman sa mga ganung studyante. Gago ako pero kung sinabi mong mag-aral, mag-aaral ko! Duh, hindi naman sa pangmamata, pero some of the girls, it seems that having their make-ups first before going to any class, is their priority... Para silang mga geisha sa kapal ng make-up matching high-heeled stilettos. Ewan.

Ayun nga, as the title of this entry says, I'm a pretty busy person kahit ganito na ang level ko. Okay, try kong alalahanin:

July 12: Report on History 1, Basa ng Oblicon, so as not to compile everything at the end.
July 13:Try to find an Econ book.. UP hopping for the UJF honorarium cheque! (Myo akin na lang!Haha)
July 14: Quiz sa Rizal at Econ
July 15: Baka may something, nakalimutan ko na... Baka quiz sa Math (asus, sisiw, yehes!)
July 16: Basa for the 8 exams for Friday and Saturday
July 17: Basa ulit
July 18: Deadline of Fil1 project, quiz on Computer whatever
July 19: Review, 114 exam ng BAA batchmates! (Godbless guys!)
July 20: Walang pasok, review
July 21: Exam, Computer, Filipino, Econ and Rizal
July 22: Exam: NatSci1, Math, HIstory and OBLICON!!!!
I'll try to mark these schedules if ever na matapos na, hehe... GO Jon!

Ayun.sana ma-aaccomplish itong lahat with flying colors. Ewan. Sana, kelangan mataas agad, for the possible 2 scholarships, Metrobank and the Academic Scholarship (1.25 kelangang GWA). Kapag nakuha ko tong 2, makakapag-boarding house nako! Whee! Ciao! :)

Badtrip

2006-07-10T18:31:00.000-07:00

Nakakainis, di ako naka-attend ng Tararun!!!! Sobrang tamang chance na ito to bond with my JPIA fwends... Si Papa talaga... =( di nia ako pinayagan e... Anyway, naghihintay lang ako ng xerox, then basa ng oblicon... babay!!!! +)

i want to

2006-07-07T06:37:00.000-07:00

I want to fall in love.... yung tipong tatanggapin namin ang isa't-isa kung ano man kami...

I want to say sorry to those I have offended...

I want to say "Leche ka!" sa sarili ko dahil isa akong siraulong tao... Leche ka Jon!!!! At isa pang leche sa isang kaibigang nagpapalungkot sa akin for a very weird reason.

I want to turn back the time, obviously...

I want to cry, sa isang kaibigang titignan lang ako, yung nilalalabas kong lahat ng nararamdaman ko...

I want to graduate, with them, my dear UPJPIA buddies... But I think sobrang labo na nito...

I want to go back to High School, attend my very last Acquaintance Party (nag-inarte ako nun =p) pati nadin ang promenade, nagkabulutong ako nun... tsaka babaguhin ko valedictory speech ko, ang babaw kasi e, hahaha =p

I want to sleep ang just dream about UPJPIA... wala lang...yung puro successful lahat ng activities...

If I won on a lottery, say 30 million pesos, ibibigay ko yung kalahati sa UPJPIA... para astigin na sila,kami...

I want to attend all the planning sems....

I just want to be me, most of all...

Nalulungkot lang

2006-07-07T00:38:00.000-07:00

siguro nga ganito kapag napapahiwalay ka sa mga kaibigan mo... yung tipong walang kasiguraduhan kung kelan kayo magkikita-kitang lahat... ng buo. Huli yung planning sem, at baka nga di pa maulit yun e... Hay... I'm so lonely... Lonely lonely... I feel that I always float in a void, with nothing to be glorious about.

nakakalungkot lang, wala na talaga yung dating glorious na bakbakan ng tuksuhan at kuwentuhan, dahil iba na ang kinagagalawan kong mundo... buhay talaga. siguro kung makita ko pa sila, depende na lang kung maluwag ang tatay ko sakin, muli. sana mangyari yun...

i need a friend so that i could express my innermost thoughts and feelings...

i need a friend whom i could share my rants and raves about the world we live in, separately...

i really need you.

AO/AP

2006-07-05T01:35:00.000-07:00

I'm so lonely... Bakit naman kaya kasi tumapat pa sa Wednesday ang AO/AP. Albeit alam ko namang ang AO/AP ay tradisyon nang ginaganap sa araw na ito, sadyang nararamdaman kong para bang ang tadhana ang naglalayo sa akin para umattend dito. Sobrang nalulungkot ako, gusto ko talagang umattend ng AO/AP...

I want to see the new apps, the new faces that will make JPIA more lively. I want to see them grow, I want to see them face the responsibilities I took last year, I want to see them how they are so pleased to join the organization I unconditionally love. I want them to realize how happy it is to have JPIA in their lives in their fruitful and happy days in college. I want them just to be, happy, belonging in the family that I truly love.

I want to see the alumni, who serve as a great inspiration in loving JPIA. Hay, kasi thru them, narealize kong hindi talaga dahilan ang JPIA sa pagkagago sa pag-aaral. My close friends know that JPIA isn't the cause why I flunked most of my grades during my second semester. JPIA ang naging cushion ko from worries, kasi laging masaya sa JPIA.

Sa JPIA ako mas naging emotional, sa JPIA ko lang nalalabas ang iba sa mga nararamdaman ko. Kaya nga nung planning sem e, hehehe... =p

JPIA lang ang nagparealize sa akin kung gaano kasakit umalis sa UP. Ang ideyang umalis ng UP ay wala sa akin, actually. Wala naman ata sa school yan. Nasa tao. Though iba talaga ang training sa UP, on the other hand.

Wahhhh, ang tanging consolation ko lang to be happy ay nalagay ako sa sigsheet. After a year, hindi na ko magiging part. Hindi nako UPJPIAn in reality (pero sa puso,oo!!!!!!) at hindi naman ako considered alumnus, so why should I attend AO/AP this year or in the years to come?

Hay... ang AO/AP tuloy ang nagdala ng mga regressions on my part. Hindi na ko magiging EB. Wala nang mga maiingay na tao. Wala nang planning sem at BACBACAN 2. Wala nang JPIA act. I could never see my friends to become EOs.... (yehes, assuming.) Pero actually, sila lang ang nakikita kong fit for the job... kasi may isa silang katangiang hindi exclusive...hahaha.

So yun... uuwi na lang ako at magbabasa... Hay life... :)

To the new apps, please enjoy the app process. I testify that you'll probably regret if you haven't. Swear!!!! =p

Ever After

2006-07-04T05:45:00.000-07:00

BONNIE BAILEY - EVER AFTER

Three years ago, my journey began
Chasing down with you, no plan in hand
Just your pulse, my raising guide in the dark
Just no win with conviction from the start

Come on and your eyes make an introduction
I found my second valium proof of life
Flawless to the point of being cuddly
I feel all full, your imperfections

And now it’s like the weather is slightly warmer
Hands gripped together up to after the storm, yeah
I still believe in ever after, with you
Cause life is a pleasure with you by my side
And there ain’t encumbering, this rainbow weekend ride
I still believe in ever after, with you

Nothing compares to the good times
Feels like were floating when the rest have declined
You made me believe in love and all the perfect kind
A real messy beautiful twisted sunshine

Emotions I gave it eruptions
With postal care, so it’s still alive
Tunnel vision, determination
I want you; I want to make it right

And now it’s like the weather is slightly warmer
Hands gripped together up to after the storm, yeah
I still believe in ever after, with you
Cause life is a pleasure with you by my side
And there ain’t encumbering, this rainbow weekend ride
I still believe in ever after, with you

You are my twisted sunshine
You are my twisted sunshine

And now it’s like the weather is slightly warmer
Hands gripped together up to after the storm, yeah
I still believe in ever after, with you
Cause life is a pleasure with you by my side
And there ain’t encumbering, this rainbow weekend ride
I still believe in ever after, with you

And now it’s like the weather is slightly warmer
Hands gripped together up to after the storm, yeah
I still believe in ever after, with you
Cause life is a pleasure with you by my side
And there ain’t encumbering, this rainbow weekend ride
I still believe in ever after, with you

And now it’s like the weather is slightly warmer
Hands gripped together up to after the storm, yeah
I still believe in ever after, with you
Cause life is a pleasure with you by my side
And there ain’t encumbering, this rainbow weekend ride
I still believe in ever after, with you

Hay, sana makamtan ko ito... with everyone that I love... sa lahat ng kaibigan, kapamilya, crush (yes, jik wag mong sabihin kung sino ha!)

Wala lang

2006-07-04T05:21:00.000-07:00

Dahil wala naman akong gagawin for tomorrow (except law,which is, anyway, boring). Magboblog na lang ako. Wala lang. I do find blogging more fun than studying (well, sino bang nag-enjoy, hahaha). Ayun, so andito ako sa isang computer shop sa Philcoa, galing lang ako ng school. Naghahanap ng tungkol sa Bayaning Third World, which is the film that we're suppose to write a reaction paper on. Ayun. So boring talaga.

Naalala ko kahapon, nainis lang ako sa argument namin ng tiyuhin ko. I was watching Naruto bandang hapon. Sabi niya, wag na daw ako manuod ng anime, may masamang epekto daw sa akin yun. I replied, "Ano po ba yung masama e malaki na ako? Marami namang matanda yung nanunuod nito (inisip ko agad si Kuya Chad, JPIAn). Yun. Nagalit siya, sabi niya sa akin, makinig daw ako sa kanya, dahil matanda siya sa akin. Hindi daw ba nakaapekto sa akin yun? E tignan ko daw yung sarili ko. Well, I'm ok naman, thinking normally. Wala namang epekto sa akin ang panunuod ng Naruto. Its just that I please myself watching that tv show, kasi naman ang dami ko lang iniisip... (family, JPIA friends, buhay) and watching anime shows makes me relaxed everytime I feel lonely or something.

Bakit ba, anung ginawa ng Naruto sa buhay ko kung bakit ganito? haha, senseless logic...

Will You Be My Friend?

2006-06-30T16:20:00.000-07:00

Will You Be My Friend? (by James Kavanaugh)

Will you be my friend?
There are so many reasons why you never should:I'm sometimes sullen, often shy, acutely sensitive,
My fear erupts as anger, I find it hard to give,I talk about myself when I'm afraid
And often spend a day without anything to say.
But I will make you laugh
And love you quite a bit
And hold you when you're sad.
I cry a little almost every day
Because I'm more caring than the strangers ever know,
And, if at times, I show my tender side
(The soft and warmer part I hide)
I wonder,Will you be my friend?
A friend
Who far beyond the feebleness of any vow or tie
Will touch the secret place where I am really I,
To know the pain of lips that plead and eyes that weep,
Who will not run away when you find me in the street
Alone and lying mangled by my quota of defeats
But will stop and stay - to tell me of another day
When I was beautiful. Will you be my friend?
There are so many reasons why you never should:
Often I'm too serious, seldom predictably the same,
Sometimes cold and distant, probably
I'll always change.I bluster and brag, seek attention like a child.
I brood and pout, my anger can be wild,
But I will make you laugh
And love you quite a bit
And be near when you're afraid.
I shake a little almost every day
Because I'm more frightened than the strangers ever know
And if at times I show my trembling side
(The anxious, fearful part I hide)
I wonder,Will you be my friend?
A friend who, When I fear your closeness, feels me push away
And stubbornly will stay to share what's left on such a day,
Who, when no one knows my name or calls me on the phone,
When there's no concern for me - what I have or haven't done
-And those I've helped and counted on have, oh so deftly, run,
Who, when there's nothing left but me, stripped of charm and subtlety,
Will nonetheless remain..Will you be my friend?
For no reason that I know
Except I want you so.

"Friendship is freedom, is flowing, is rare... Emptiness brings shadows and crowds easy to replace. Fullness brings a friend. Friendship does not exhaust or cling, except or demand. It is- and that is enough!" - James Kavanaugh.

It is true great things come in small packages. Once the package of friendship has been opened, it can never be closed... it is a constant book always written...waiting to be read... and enjoyed. We may have our disagreements...we may argue... we may concern one another...friendship is a unique bond that lasts through it all...- Anonymous

this text really describes how I feel sometimes... and it really struck my heart. ;c

All I really want

2006-06-28T22:11:00.000-07:00

This entry's for everyone who's very concerned about the things that are happening to me. To no one in particular i.e., no specific person...

Please accept my decision. It can never be changed. Now that I have already transferred school. All I really want for you is to move on, just as what I have did.

Please forgive me if I'm trying to give up from the start. But I never really gave up; its just that I'm trying to think and look things from a worst case scenario. It prevents me from hurting so much in the end. All I really want for you is to understand me, just as I have understood your point.

Please forgive if I left you guys this way. Believe me, its very painful for me to come up with this decision. All I really want for you is to be happy for me, just as I am trying to be happy for myself.

Please don't pretend that nothing's happened. It may have turned on the way we both don't like, but please, stop from giving me those apathetic eyes. Try not to pretend that you care, don't care, whatever. I could not fathom what you really feel because you are not saying it. And for the nth time, I really hate it. All I really want for you is to be true, just as I have been true to you.

All I really want is that happiness permeates the world we have, though reality suggests the other side...

Breakaway

2006-06-28T22:08:00.000-07:00

Inspiring para sa akin, lalo na sa mga dinaraanan kong pagsubok nowadays... :)

Breakaway Lyrics
Kelly Clarkson

Grew up in a small town
and when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I'd pray
I could breakaway

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But i won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll Take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get aboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane far away
And breakaway...

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But I gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away
Breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly,
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance,
Make a change,
And breakaway...

Breakaway
Breakaway...

100 years

2006-06-28T21:55:00.000-07:00

100 Years
Five for Fighting

I’m 15 for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20
And I’m just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are

I’m 22 for a moment
And she feels better than ever
And we’re on fire
Making our way back from mars

15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose
15 there’s never a wish better than this
When you've only got 100 years to live...

I’m 33 for a moment
I'm still the man but you see I’m a they
A kid on the way babe
A family on my mind

I’m 45 for a moment
The sea is high
And I’m heading into a crisis
Chasing the years of my life

15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose yourself
Within a morning star
15 I’m alright with you
15 there’s never a wish better than this
When you've only got a 100 years to live...

Half time goes by
Suddenly you’re wise
Another blink of an eye
67 is gone
The sun is getting high
We’re moving on...

I’m 99 for a moment
With time for just another moment
And I’m just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are

15 there's still time for you
22 I feel her too
33 you're on your way
Every Day's a new Day

ooh ooh hoo ooh hoo ooh,
ooh ooh hoo ooh hoo ooh,
ooh ooh hoo ooh ooh ooh ooh hoo hoo hoo ooooooooooooooh

15 there’s still time for you
Time to buy and time to choose
Hey 15 there’s never a wish better than this
When you've only got a 100 years to live...

Nakakatuwa lang...

2006-06-27T00:33:00.000-07:00

Nakapagsama na din kami ng RAGSJAM nung Linggo!Yay... After so many months na di nagkita-kita dahil sa busy scheds and kaniya-kaniyang buhay, sa wakas, nagkasama kaming lahat ulit. I miss them sobra!!! Sobrang lagi na lang akong devoted to school work at org responsibilities, so I can't find the time to spend with them... Pano ba naman kasi, 2 kaming nasa UP lang, e si Dory e Educ na, so wala din, di din kami nakakapagmit talaga... Sa laki ba naman ng UP e... =p

Anyhoo, ayun nga... nagkita kaming lahat sa bday ng mom ni Grace. Sobrang nag-alangan kami nila Junyl, Geraldine at Doray dahil nga pangmatanda din yun, at saka baka maulit yung dating, sinabi ng mom niya na "please let them go". Yun so sinundo nalang ako nila Junyl beforehand dahil wala nga akong pera at balak sumama... Hindi ako nagregret dahil nagbonding kaming magkakaibigan, dahil gumawa kami ng sarili naming mundo, hahaha. Dahil si Grace ay may friends pa from her job (call center, ang lupit no, tapos Nursing student pa siya), kaming apat muna ang nagkwentuhan... Kaniya-kaniyang mundo sa bahay nila, mga tanders, call center friends at RAGSJAM. So yun. Nagkamustahan, nagshare ng family problems, estado sa buhay... Sobrang na-guilty nga ako dahil sila pa ang huling naka-alam na lumipat na ako ng school... Sabi ni Doray, "di mo ba kami friends?" E hello? Mga smart sim users kayong lahat, ako lang ang kaisa-isang globe.... duh.

Pero okei lang... Ang saya. Tapos e tumambay kami nila Ge at Junyl sa Jollibee Tungko (yehes, siyudad na ang San Jose del monte talaga). Wala lang, tambay lang talaga.. Wala na kaming pera dahil saktong pamasahe lang at nilibre pa nila ako sa pamasahe (friend user, haha). Ayun. Tapos kuwentuhan ulit.

I definitely miss their company. Nung HS, kahit lahat sila ay nasa Council/CAT, tapos ako wala, di pa din kami nawawalan ng oras to talk. Ang saya talaga. Kahit nagbabarahan na kami or something, ang saya pa din. Sabi nga ni Ge sa problema ko, never ka dapat nagpaplano ng buhay. Hayaan mo lang na idaloy ka sa ilog ng tadhana. May plano ang Diyos sa ating lahat kaya ganiyan... Naalala ko pa sabi ni Asa, kaya daw ganito ang nangyari sa akin dahil may purpose ang itaas... ano kaya yun? Yung pagsali ko sa JPIA mayroon din daw. Yung pag-alis ko at sa piling ng mga kaibigan ko dun (SFAS,D2 and the hyperlinks gang, Kalaiers) meron din daw. So kelangang i-accept.

GAWD... I really miss my HS barkadas... RAGSJAM at NEXT IN LINE...

next entry (I'll try with pix): NEXT IN LINE Valenzuela escapade....

Pressures in life

2006-06-23T00:26:00.000-07:00

Hay, eversince I transferred school, I felt that I carry more pressures than before. Naisip ko lang, nung Isko pa ko, ang tanging pressure ko lang nun ay maka-graduate ng BAA, on time at masaya ang parents. Then, natanggal ako sa course at college, umalis ng UP, then lumipat ng FEU. Parang feeling ko, ang mata ng ibang tao ay masyadong nakakababa ng self-esteem. Wala lang. Feeling ko kasi minamata na ako minsan. Porket ba lumipat na ako ng school e ibang tao na ako at lesser mortal sa kanila? Bakit alam ba nila yung mga reasons ko kung bakit ako lumipat? Alam ba nilang nasasaktan na ako?

Ang daming dahilan, ang daming rason... Ang dami ko nang pressures in life. Una, kelangan ko nang grumaduate, on time... Una, baka mauna pang grumaduate ang 2nd kong kapatid at baka magsabay kami nung pangatlo! Shet... Ako pa ata ang papaaralin nila, ahehehe...

Pangalawa, I should perform much better this time. Alam niyo na kung bakit, ahahaha... =p

Pangatlo, kelangan kong mabalik ang tiwala ng mga magulang ko.

Pang-apat mabura sa paligid ko yung mga ganung uri ng mata.

Panglima, maging masaya at bumalik yung dating ako...

Hay nalang...

Sana alam niyong marami akong prinoblema sa school at family noon... At kung kayo lang ang nasa katawan ko nun, baka gawin niyo din ang ginawa ko...

Hay...

2006-06-22T05:30:00.000-07:00

Nalulungkot lang talaga siguro ako... I want to join the BACBACAN practices... First time ko pa naman sanang mag-BACBACAN for the batch tapos napurnada pa, ahahaha... Ayun.

Si KC Alfaro nilagnat pa... Kawawa naman, kaya sinamahan ko siya pauwi... sana ok na siya...

Wala pa kong Math book na dapat hindi ko na tinake... Pakshet, ang boring ng Math, pano ba namang hindi ako mabobore, e nag-math 17 na ko at 100 sa UP (Algeb and Trigo) and (Calculus) respectively... At kamusta, hindi naman sa pang-ookray, pero may isa akong kaklaseng hindi pa gamay ang integers!!!! O my God... ganun na ba talaga... Wala lang... Ang inferior na nga ng utak ko, tapos may di pa pala nakakaalam nun... pagdadasal ko na lang siya... O well, ganun talaga ang life...

Ang dami kong babasahin... Law, mga 18 pages balikan, History di ko pa nababasa... Ewan talaga! Leche talaga yung PH ng IABF na yun... I am really delayed ng isang linggo... Ngayon I'm suffering a negative externality that was imputed by his katamaran... gawd...

HIndi pa rin talaga ako masaya... ang daming dahilan... ewan... ano nga ba talaga ang gusto kong maging?

Sa totoo lang, gusto kong maging wizard... no kidding...

PENG YOU

2006-06-21T02:31:00.000-07:00

After I graduated, babalikan ko tong entry na ito... tapos, i'll try na magpakuha ng picture with them... sa planning sem maybe, ewan... baka kasi di na ako pwede dun noh? si Joshua nga lang ang problema e, sa Cebu na siya forever. Tapos, I'll try to find a song na bagay sa amin, hehe... Baka sabihin nung iba wala sila dito, ahehe... By the way, planning sem picture to... okei? =p

Peng You
Kim Chui

Sa lahat ng luha
Lagi kang may kasama
Sa gitna ng ulan
Karamay mo ako kaibigan

Sa tatahakin mong daan
Di kita iiwan
Di ka na mag iisa kaibigan

Ating pagkakaibigan
Di magbabago kailanman
Kahit na magkalayo
Nandito ka sa aking puso

(Instrumental)

Ating pagkakaibigan
Di magbabago kailanman
Kahit na magkalayo
Nandito ka sa aking puso

Magkaibigan kahit kailan

Bakit nga ba tong kantang to? Kasi na-touch ako dun sa melody niya, na para bang kahit sino ang kumanta, i-sustain lang nag memory mo, magiging nostalgic ka na... Ayun... So ito... Sana di niyo ko malimutan, kahit sobrang liit lang ng space ang nai-allot niyo para sa akin sa alaala niyo... :)

TBA

2006-06-20T20:02:00.000-07:00

go JPIA!!!

Masaya nga ba?

2006-06-19T06:12:00.000-07:00

Yehes, dahil naging mabait na ang Diyos today, binigyan niya nako ng subjects! Whoopie!! Masaya nga ba ako dun? Superficially, yes, dahil hindi na ko papagalitan ng ama ko... Deep inside, hindi pa din... pero okay lang, sadyang ganyan ang buhay e...

Updates:

: May subjects na ako.
: 24 units this sem... TF: 12-7:30 ng gabi. WS: 7:30 am-3:30... That means, I'm gonna miss all the salient Exte and JPIA acts... Sorry Exte... Kasalanan ng FEU to dahil hindi nila prinocess ng mabilis papeles ko... Swear, try ko pa ding pumunta to my very best... Shemps mahal ko kayo diba? Yuck...
: Visited UP kanina. Aksholi palusot lang yung manghihiram ako ng law book (GO BOIBOI!). Pero sort of totoo din, kasi may law din ako this sem. Namimiss ko lang ang ingay ng JPIA tambayan... At huwag ka, kumanta kami to death ng matataas na kanta nila Janno, Addie, Leo at KC... Nagagalit na nga ang AEC/PX at si Trek , dahil nagbabasa siya ng 164 (Law on Negotiable Instruments)... Sorry Trek, pagbigyan mo na kami, lalo na ako... =p
: Got my FEU id, try to show it to my blog next tym...
: Sana makahiram ng law book c/o Karren Mortell... Yay!
: Malungkot dahil wala pa kong gamit at physical exam...
: Pinipilit na huwag pansinin pero andun siya... ano bang magagawa ko, e di kinakausap kapag may sinasabi siya, pero hindi na tulad dati na hindi minimalized.... Nire-relinquish ko lang naman ang feelings ko e, hindi ito nagpapa-succumb, ok? Hindi e, kasi talaga, kahit mababaw, ayoko ng ganun...
: Kumain sa SC at nagkwentuhan till past 8 with Janno and Addie, eventually with Baj... From country issues to HS memories... saya... Bye VP at Chair...

: At ito, nagboblog... pauwi na promise... maaga pa ko bukas!!! Byers :))

Masdan mong aking mata di mo ba nakikita?
Ako ngayo'y lumilipad at nasa langit na.
Gusto mo bang sumama?
-Alapaap, Eheads

totoo ba ito?

2006-06-16T01:47:00.000-07:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Powertrippers

2006-06-16T01:15:00.000-07:00

WARNING: This entry is so emotional... This is my blog, so allow me to rant.

I dunno where to start... Its just that within this week, with so much effort I have given just to finish my fu**in' requirements, I just got fu**in' 3 results: anger, frustration, stress. I really don't deserve this shitty treatment. I have been submissive to their rules and regulations. I duly followed all the necessary requirements for registration, and now, after all the stress, muscle-aching walks, frustrating waits for that grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr... Program Head, whose primary function, in my belief, in the system was just to find a leisure time in his(?) work while we, the poor students, wait in vain just to have a good schedule, does he understand what do students like me feel when we wait there in abyss, yet having nothing?

I have been processing my subjects, my enrollment since Tuesday, and lo! I still don't have any classes, rooms to go and professors to love and to hate... It's so unfair, I am being nice to them, controlling my temperament, my anguish to their senseless logic in using their registration system wherein the students are doing all of the effort, while these powertrippers, mandated to help the students in the registration process, just make chismis, giving guffaws in front of the stressed, worried students. That's shitty.

Well, my dear UP friends, you know, you should appreciate the help RVC has given despite the forever wait. At least, you can have an assurance that you could get a subject, despite the unavailavility of the slots. While I, hoping for a better tomorrow with my not-so-good present, is now suffering despite the academic load has not yet permeated my system. Why these shitty things happen to me? Don't they know my parents are fighting because of their unprofessionalism, their being unethical and irresponsibility? Don't they know that I travel everyday for 4-5 hours just to process my enrollment in their dismal office? DOn't they realize that they have been students before, like us, who suffers from the hassling registration process? Or its just they're inherently indifferent about this unsystematic process? They're really powertrippers. And I hope, when I finished studying in their school, I won't grow like them, I hope I will take the other path instead...

randomness part 2

2006-06-15T03:49:00.000-07:00

hindi ito totoo, haha =p

You Are Chocolate Chip Ice Cream

You are kind, popular, and generous.
You tend to be successful at anything you try.
A social butterfly, you are great at entertaining a crowd.

You are most compatible with strawberry ice cream.

What Flavor Ice Cream Are You?

Your Animal Personality

Your Power Animal: Deer

Animal You Were in a Past Life: Panda

You are a fun-seeker - an adventurous, risk-taker.
While you are spontaneous, you are not very rational.

The Animal Personality Test

wushu! =p

You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Cheese Pizza

Traditional and comforting.
You focus on living a quality life.
You're not easily impressed with novelty.
Yet, you easily impress others.

What's Your Pizza Personality?

You Are Japanese Food

Strange yet delicious.
Contrary to popular belief, you're not always eaten raw.

What Kind of Food Are You?

talaga lang ha?

randomness

2006-06-15T03:28:00.000-07:00

All-Around Smart

You are all-around smart. Essentially, that means that you are a good combination of your own knowledge and experience, along with having learned through instruction - and you are equally as good with theoretical things as you are with real-world, applied things. You have a well-rounded brain.

30% theoretical intelligence
40% learned intelligence

What Is Your Best Sexual Skill?

Name:

Age:

Sex:

Sexuality:

Flirting Skill Level - 10%

Kissing Skill Level - 71%

Cudding Skill Level - 43%

Sex Skill Level - 99%

Why They Love You

You can do amazing things with your tongue.

Why They Hate You

You bite.

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New - COOL Dating Tips and Romance Advice!

You Are 16 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Kelly Clarkson Shares Your Taste in Music

See her whole playlist here (iTunes required)

Which Musician (or Group) Shares Your Taste in Music?

bakit si kelly clarkson? di naman ako mahilig masyado sa pop..alternative rules...

Your Brain's Pattern

Your brain is always looking for the connections in life.
You always amaze your friends by figuring out things first.
You're also good at connecting people - and often play match maker.
You see the world in fluid, flexible terms. Nothing is black or white.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

You Are Not Scary

Everyone loves you. Isn't that sweet?

How Scary Are You?

totoo ba ito??

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	3.9
Mind:	2.8
Body:	5.1
Spirit:	2.9
Friends/Family:	5.6
Love:	1.5
Finance:	3.5
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

What Makes You.. by SheBangs12
Your name?
Your gender?
What makes you sexy?	Your hips
What makes you pretty?	Your eyes
What makes you loveable?	How sexy you are
What makes you fun?	Your ability to keep smiling
What makes you irresistable?	Everything.
What makes you cute?	Oh, just about everything ^.^

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Manindigan ka Jon...

2006-06-15T02:54:00.000-07:00

Hay, isang malaking buwisit ang araw na ito... (kelan ba ko hindi nabwisit, hehe). Pano ba naman kasi, pinaghintay ako ng ultimate 4 hours just to get my evaluation form. P.I. talaga sila, hindi ba nila alam na nagsasayang lang ako ng pamasahe kakalakad na papeles ko? Buwisit talaga. Bulacan pa ko mga koyang at mga ateh... Kaya ang ginawa ko, kumain muna ako sa Jollibee dahil gutom na gutom talaga ako... Hy, ang hirap talaga... Hirap na nga ako emotionally, pati ba naman physically? Hahaha...

Ayun, so naghintay ako para dun sa papeles ko, and whoa!!!! Nandun lang sa office ng dean.Sa wakas, makakaenroll na ko... But no, lecheng Admissions office yan ng FEU. Buwisit talaga... Pinabalik-balik pa ko, hahagilapin lang ang papeles ko... buwisit sila.

At tapos nun, nagpunta na ako sa pavilion to pay. But leche ulit, may fine sa late enrollment! Bwahaha, mangagantso talaga ang FEU... 100 pesos ang fine. Tapos bayad na ko ng P8000 for the downpayment (dahil wala kaming pera.) Oh no!!!

At least di na magagalit ang tatay ko. Kahapon nga, nag-away sila ni nanay sa phone... Sobrang nung nabalitaan ko yun, humagulgol talaga ako dahil feeling ko ako'y malaking pabigat. Ang daming nagsink-in sa akin kagabi... Hay, lagi na lang akong depressed, nawawalan ako ng drive (as I have texted Genesis last night) and gana sa pagkain (woooh, dapat pala lagi akong depressed). Seriously, hindi nako ganung katakaw, feeling ko dahil sa mga iniisip ko about my life... Isa talaga akong pakitang tao.. Lagi kong sinasabing okay lang ako, pero deep inside hindi...

Tapos kanina, pagkabayad ko, diretso ako sa IABF (Institute of Accounts, Business and Finance), ang bagong CBA ng buhay ko. Shet, di na pala ako pwedeng kumuha ng subjects dahil tapos na.. Balik nalang daw ako tomorrow... wenk... Putsat talaga tong enrollment na ito... Kaya nga nau-understand ko ang RVC, kasi nga students na lang ang nag-oorganize for the students.. kahit forever kang mag-wait, at least aasikasuhin ka nila.. Leche, sa *** ikaw na nga mag-aasikaso ng lahat, pati ba naman paghihintay pahirapan????

Ayun, dahil dito, maraming nagsink-in sakin dahil sa salitang officially... Ito ay ang mga sumusunod:

1.Officially, I'm enrolled sa FEU, though kukuha pa lang ako ng subjects tomorrow, dahil nga tapos na daw ang session for today. Kukunin ko din pala ang honorable dismissal ko sa UP next week... tear ;c

2. Officially, isa na kong Tamaraw. Sa skool lang at sa reg form, uniform at id.. pero ang puso ko, ISKOLAR ng BAYAN...

3. Officially, hindi na ko UPJPIA Externals Co-chair. Though matagal na ito, ngayon lang talaga nagsink-in sa akin... Masakit at nagpipigil lang akong umiyak nung eb meeting nung reg kaya nung tinukso ako nilang "bakit andito ka pa?" ay masakit talaga. I love Exte. Marami akong natutunan sa committee na ito. Hindi lang pagdating sa work at people management, kung hindi lalong lumambot ang puso ko for other people. Kaya nga sabi ni Ate Iris (VP before Janno), you must have the compassion and willingness to help other people, and Janno said, kelangan talagang may puso ka. And I have achieved that in short period of time... Ang sakit talaga...

at ang pinakamasakit sa lahat:

4. Officially, hindi na ako parte ng UPJPIA. Shet, ang sakit talaga... sobra... okay lang sana kung grumaduate ako, pero umalis ako nang hindi natatapos ang JPIA life ko... Gusto ko pang mag-Networx, JPIAweek, FP, Exte chair, at kung pwede pa, VP! hahaha =p Pero seriously, sobrang sana di na lang ako pumasa ng UP para sa pag-alis ko'y di man lang ako nakakaramdam ng ganitong sakit. Oh well, sabi nga ni Jill, panindigan mo na yan, at ito ang thrust ko sa life ngayon, MANINDIGAN.

BEST I EVER HAD

2006-06-14T18:41:00.000-07:00

Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning) Lyrics

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

Chorus
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

Chorus
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

Chorus
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever

Huwag nio naman akong ganituhin

2006-06-13T03:13:00.000-07:00

I really don't deserve this... Wag nio akong ganituhin. Kahit minsan, alam kong mga pabiro lang ang mga simpleng hirit niyo na bakit andito ka pa? that means half true for me. Masakit naman yung desisyong ginawa ko ha, nanganganib nga akong hindi makapagpatuloy ng pag-aaral dahil sa patung-patong na problema ng pamilya namin, ginaganito niyo pa ako? Ang sakit nun kahit papaano... Lalo na kung nanggagaling pa sa mga bibig ng sarili kong mga kaibigan... shet, ang sakit...

Pinipigil ko na nga lang ang depression ko... Salamat talaga Jill de Dumo... Ikaw talaga ang tunay kong reality check... Tama ka, hindi tama ang pagiging selfish... Walang idudulot na mabuti yun para sa akin at sa pamilya ko. Jill, tunay ka talagang kaibigan... Salamat talaga... Alam kong may problema ka din, pero nagawa mo pa talaga akong tulungan...

Jill Mae Petronio, Asamarie Arevalo, my dearest truefriends... salamat at lagi niyo kong dinadamayan, from the day na in-open ko itong problemang ito, hanggang ngayon, andiyan pa din kayo. Mahal ko kayo talaga...

UP friends (esp. JPIA batchmates), mahal ko kayo... minsan lang talaga di niyo naiisip na masakit lang talaga. Walang kuwenta yung mga pang-aasar niyo before, as in wala, pero please, be sensitive minsan kung medyo delicate yung sitwasyon. Masakit lang talaga dahil parang mina-marginalize niyo ko by doing that simple mockery. Sorry ha, I've never been this low before kaya di pa ko sanay...

Papa, salamat sa patuloy na pagsuporta, kahit alam kong isa akong matinding failure sa family. Alam kong nanganganib na din ang kalusugan mo dahil sa pasma, pero promise, pagbubutihan ko po. Nawala na yung drive ko before sa pag-aaral dahil sa mga problema natin sa bahay...

At ngayon, di pa din ako enrolled. GO FEU!!! hahaha

P.S.: Kung ayaw niyo na kong makita dahil sa mga rasong di ko alam, sige, kaya kong gawin yun. Kung di man masakit para sa inyo yun, titiisin ko na lang ang sakit... Alam kong mas masaklap pa din kay Dung, pero masakit din para sa akin yung pag-alis ko. If you want a goodbye, ok I will give you all what you want... there will be no see you later for us...

from blogthings.com

2006-06-11T21:29:00.000-07:00

You Should Be a Musician

You have a rare combinations of talents: an ear for music, nimble fingers, and the willpower to practice.
You could master almost any instrument you choose to play (if you haven't already!)

What Sort of Artist Should You Be?

First day Funk

2006-06-11T20:39:00.000-07:00

Hay, grabe, bukas, 1st day of classes... actually, I'm not yet enrolled. At ayoko pa, hehe... Nako, tama na ang ganitong mentalidad. Kailangang mapanindigan ko na ang desisyong ito. Iniisip ko nga e, mas maswerte pa ko kay JOshua, kasi siya, he can never go back to Manila, unless...

O ito, sobrang bored talaga ako... buti na lang, nakatakas ako at nakapagnet, ahehe... sobrang boring! shet... wala akong ginawa kung hindi matulog, kumain, manood ng TV, magtext, kumanta with the discman! whoopie.. halatang walang pakinabang sa sistemang panlipunan... haha. =p magkukwento muna ako ng mga naganap dis week, since puro mga nararamdaman ko lang ang nilalagay ko sa blog ko:

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Reg week ng UP last week. of course, bitter-bitteran ako dahil sa FEU na ko next sem. So bonding na naman ako sa SFAS, batchmates. At wag ka, ang ingay namin sa 3f back... walang magawa. Nagulat naman ako sa RVC dahil nakalagay name ko sa whiteboards (non-major daw), so nahihiya talaga ako... hello, di nako UP next sem, so what's the use diba?.

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1st eb meeting ng JPIA nung Wednesday. Tuwang-tuwa naman ako, dahil welcome pa din ako (YOON!) Nakakalungkot nga lang, at hindi na ko co-chair ng Externals... sadness, pero ganito talaga e. Panindigan! Haha... Naiinis nga lang ako sa isang tao at bakit kelangan pang sabihin bakit andito ka? Kahit alam kong pabiro lang yun, masakit pa din... at same person lang yun sa kinatatampuhan ko (tantanan na ang immaturity). Wushu! Tuwang-tuwa ako para sa mga kaibigan kong sila Cleiza, Bambi, Katrina at Nikki who have taken the challenge of being part of the EB. Yehes, GO Juniors!

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Pumasa ako sa FEU, at hindi naman ako masyadong masaya. Sabi nga ni Lica, kamusta ka naman, UPCAT passer ka so, papasa ka talaga dian! Ahehehe. At oo nga, pasado ako. 93 percent ako sa exam at may 99 na percentile, meaning nasa upper 1% ako ng pumasa (yabang!). Dahil don, Merit scholar ako, ibig sabihin, may scholarship forever, ahehe... UNfortunately, di pala, kasi transferee daw ako at hindi entitled sa scholarship! Pakshet! Sana di na lang nila ako nilagay sa list na yun. I felt that I was blacklisted. Biro mo ba naman, sa top 16 (yabang!) tapos ako lang ang hindi qualified for the scholarship! Kamusta ka naman, kelangan ko ng pera ateh!!!!! Grrr tlaga...

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Nanuod kami nila Archie, Micha, Charm,Chino ng the Omen. As usual, si MIcha nangilabot na naman. At wala na kong pera pauwi non. So nangutang ako sa ever kind na si Micha at nakauwi nako! Woohoo! Pinagalitan na ako ng tatay ko kasi gabi na raw ako umuwi.

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Walang kuwenta na ang other events. Some ay personal... So di ko na lang ikukuwento... ahehehe =p

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Napag-katuwaan ko sa photoshop ang Bacbacan pix... tignan natin ang kinalabasan, ahehehe. (upper part of the entry)ayaw pala malagay,next tym na lang ha! =p

Guilt

2006-06-08T01:56:00.000-07:00

I'm so guilty...about so many things... can't explain here completely... i'll just have to enumerate, okei?

1. Guilty on what I have been doing to my parents. Di ko man lang sila isinaalang-alang sa desisyon kong lumipat ng school. Sorry mama, I've been a stupid kid everytime.

2. Guilty on what I have been doing to my friends in HS. Hindi ko na sila sinisipot lagi sa get together namin, laging JPIA or college-related stuffs. Sori guys.

3. Guilty on what I have been doing to other people. Maraming nasasaktan sa mga ginagawa ko, sori talaga.

4. Guilty on what I have done to my orgmates. Yehes, Go JPIA! haha... Sori talaga if I decided to leave... I have been the most stupid person by doing that.

5. GUilty about what I have been doing to a friend who never really hurt me that MUCH. Sori talaga kung naiinis ako sa iyo. Alam kong di ka lang showy, pero sobrang nasaktan ako nung wala ka man lamang reaction sa pag-alis ko. All you just said is ok, you can trust me. Ang daya mo... Di kita kinakausap kasi nahihiya na ko sa pagtatampo ko. Naiinis dahil bakit ako ganito sa yo. Sori talaga, sori, pahuhupain ko na lang. Siguro assuming lang ako at alam ko yun, na feeling close sa iyo... Hehe... Sori talaga. Masaklap pa, ay di mo alam na naiinis ako sa yo... ;c

Last but not the least, guilty ako sa ginagawa ako sa sarili ko... gago ko talaga, hehe... =p

next tym na lang ako mag-uupdate. :)

What kind of soul do I have?

2006-06-05T23:17:00.000-07:00

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world
So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time
You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...
But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult

You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.
Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.
Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.
Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.

Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

What does my birthdate mean?

2006-06-05T23:08:00.000-07:00

Your Birthdate: May 9

You are a born idealist, with more pet causes than you can count.
You prefer be around others, both when working and while relaxing.
Generous and giving, you believe you can change the world one person at a time.
You're open minded and tolerant. People feel like they can tell you anything.

Your strength: Your go-with-the-flow flexibility

Your weakness: Your flair for the over dramatic

Your power color: Pine green

Your power symbol: Circle

Your power month: September

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

where does your inner californian belong?

2006-06-05T22:25:00.000-07:00

whee, lang po ito... leo, pareho tayo ng results :)

Orange County

You're rich, pretty, and living a charmed life. (Or you seriously wish you were.)
From Disneyland to Laguna Beach, you're all about living the California dream life.
Just make sure to marry rich - so you don't have to work for it!

Where Does Your Inner Californian Belong?

Wenk

2006-06-03T00:25:00.000-07:00

Isang malaking WENK ang araw na to... Basta, as usual, hindi na naman nasunod ang mga pinaplano ko... olats talaga... sabi ko, 4 am ako gigising, but no, 4:57 am ako nagising... shet talaga. Buti nalang, mabilis ang biyahe at nakarating ako ng 6:45 am sa Tararun booth... wenk talaga. Ayun, tumulong ako sa Pep EBs na sina Aira (chair), co-chairs, Hazel, Jill, Acris, Milcah, at new cochairs na si Mar at friend kong si Cleiza (wohoo!). Nakigulo din ang mga VP na sina Lawrence at Janno. Dumating din si Manu, Micha, Addie, ang forever late na si Roger at Archie, VP Garma whose father is hospitalized today, Abby Wu, Mam Lau, Melbang maingay (LICA, ahahahaha), at si Banawa. Iba sa amen ay nagpunta lang for video shoot (Abby, Banawa, Addie) while the rest ay sa meetings (FP people, Peppers). Nakakaawa lang si Mark, kasi galing pa siyang Makati just for the shoot. Buti nga... ahehehe =p

Tapos, sabi ko, mag-rereview ako for the exam nga, for FEU. but then, katulad ng dati, hindi nasunod... wenk. kaya tumambay ako sa CBA kasama sila Banawa, Janno, Abby Wu, Roger at Anicia. Then umuwi si Roger. Umalis naman kami at pumunta silang Metroeast... hay, shet... gusto ko talagang sumama... nakakainis. So diretso nakong Morayta, kumain sa MCDO tapos woohoo!exam na...

Exaj, ang ganda ng facilities ng FEU. take note, may elevator ang building College of Nursing... hehe. Then, pumasok kami sa isang computer lab.. Nagulat ako, kala ko parang UPCAT na manually mong sasagutan, but no! Dahil hi-tech ang FEU, sa computer! ahahaha. May personal data pang ififill-up... tapos start na ng exam.

First ay Reading comprehension. Okei lang... di naman malalalim ang words at hindi masyadong boring ang articles. So keri lang. Next, grammar. Okei lang, di na ko bobo sa English e... then Science... predominantly, biology ang subject, kaya barberable... pero wag ka, alam ko pa pala yung aerobic respiration, sublimation at kung ano-ano pa... then math, my peyobrit... though nakalimutan ko na yung tests for congruency at kung ano pang kaeklatan sa geometry, inenjoy ko ang Math part. Patalo ang abstract reasoning... shet! nakakahilo talaga... dun ako nagtagal dahil nakakahilo yung pagkakaayos ng choices (i.e, a,b,c,d) pakshet! horizontal, feeling ko mali ako ng napili, given na time-pressured and exam... exaj talaga... sana pumasa, nakakahiya kung UPCAT PASSER ako tapos nakashift sa BAA pa tapos bagsak sa entrance exam ng FEU... wenk talaga...

Sige, nahihilo pa ko e.... babay muna... andito pa ko sa Morayta, Bulacan pa ko uuwi... hehe.

P.S.: Ewan ha, kanina sa UP, nang dumating sa UP yung kinaiinisan ko at kinatatampuhang tao, di ko siya masyadong pinapansin... Kapag may sandaling naligaw yung mata ko sa mata, sinasadya kong tumingin sa ibang lugar, or tao for example. Nung kinakausap niya ko kanina sa may BA, nagtanung kung bakit ako nagbabasa, biglang hindi ko siya sinagot at parang ayaw ko na siyang kausapin. Lica, wag mong sabihin kung sino to ah, kasi ba naman, NR xa e... Ewan, though gusto ko siyang kausapin kasi nga friend (?) ko siya. Ewan, nakakatampo lang talaga e. Ang daming bagay ang kinatatampuhan ko sa kanya... O eto di sa pagmamayabang (at alam kong wala akong ipagmamayabang), 1.75 ako sa Socio 101 at 2.25 sa Psych. Never akong nag-aral at forever na nagday-dream. Kitams. Ang keser niya kasi at GC mode pa daw kuno, pero gets? Kung kahit sandali lang sana ay dumalaw siya sa FOPC tambay or SAG workshops, malaking bagay na yun... Ewan talaga. Akala ko, nawala na yung tampo ko dahil nanalo na ang JPIA sa BA block, but still, ewan pa din talaga. Shet, never akong nagtampo sa tao ng ganito... Sana matigil na... Ang daming dahilan kung bakit nagtatampo ako sa kanya, pero kasi madami din palang dahilan para hindi... sana mawala na... AT SANA PUMASA AKO SA ENTRANCE EXAM AT MAKAPASOK SA QUOTA! WENK!

The Miasma of being a freshie

2006-06-01T22:42:00.000-07:00

I know, I know, its been a crazy summer for me.... and now, I will be again in the situation wherein I am hoping to pass... yep, being a freshie. I sense that my transfer of school lowers my year level again, back to my younger years, of being a freshie.

I am now in a computer shop here in Morayta, near FEU. I paid 440 pesos for the entrance examination tomorrow 1 pm, and I'm happy because i could attend UP JPIA's Tararun reg and flyering tomorrow morning, and the JPIA video for the freshies... wheee!At least I could now have a VALID reason to leave the house on Saturday. Anyway, I have been so crazy about stuffs now about life... what if i become a freshie... again? I hope not... that would give me 7 years to finish college, if I'm right, BS Accountancy here in FEU has the same years with UP's BSBAA program. If that happens, I will be, a HYPERTERMINAL! woohoo! =p tumatanda na kong paurong,shet... The consolation in my situation is that if I'm a laude,with the mentioned course, well...

Why did I decided to write this entry anyways? Well, I think blog has been an outlet for people who cannot divert their emotions into other activities... well, blog releases tension, and stress, and lots of emotions we can't and can handle. So there... also to keep you guys updated about my life... (And I hope I do make sense here... )

What if I become a freshman again? This is to be more likely to occur in my mind now... I don't want my stay in UP, the units I took there to be simply, waived. I hope FEU will be nice to let me be a sophie or a junior, that will be a good news for me, I guess. But then again, there's nothing wrong in being a freshie... you'll feel again the pressure and all, the adjustments, the guilt of procastination, the GC mode, the keser-ness, and all. Kaso ayokong tumanda sa college eh. Shet, wag pala. =p

ON HIATUS!

2006-05-31T21:50:00.000-07:00

I will renovate my blog... matatagalan pa siguro bago ako magpost, okei? thanks... ;)

Wednesday is a lonely day...

2006-05-24T04:37:00.000-07:00

Yehes, napapadalas ang entry ko... hehe... Ito, dahil nga lilipat na ako ng school, kelangan maghabol ng papers. Okay, umalis ako ng maaga sa bahay! Kamusta naman, 9 palang ata, nasa UP na ko. So ako, dahil mahal ang JPIA, sumilip sa FOPC at tumingin kung may familiar faces na nandun. OK. Jonalyne at Baj lang ang nandun, so nasan si ******? Kamusta ka naman diba? Yuck, baka may something lang siya at di ko siya nakita, or nasa taas siya (4th floor). Ayun. So, ako naman, nagulat at may instant request si LE BAJ (Baj, obviously). Sabi niya, pwede daw bang maging counter ako... so huminde naman ako dahil nga inaayos ko ang papers ko... Sori Jonz at Baj, kelangan ito muna ang aasikasuhin ko...

So, baba naman ako at pumunta sa CBA, to again, see some familiar faces. Pero wala. Hindi pa naman kasi nagsisimula ang 99.2 exam. So dumiretso naman ako sa PNB para magbayad. Pagdating ko, sabi ko sa sarili ko, Yehes! walang tao, walang hassle at leche na pila... hahaha... anyhoo, diretso ako sa cashier... at sinabi kong magbabayad for student clearance. But no! Sabi niya pang-graduate daw nakuha ko... sige... tapos alis naman ako at dumiretso ng SC kasi feel kong maghanap ng lyrics.. OK, Para sa Masa ng Eheads, Anything For You ni Nina, Slide ng Goo Goo Dolls at Everything You Want ng Vertical Horizon... So diretso OUR, then kamusta!Kelangan pa palang ipa-clear dahil enrolled daw ako this summer. So puntang Main Lib, dahil kelangan... Shet! Di pa daw pwede, dahil sarado BA lib ngayon... Shet, sana kahapon pa pala... So biguang puso, kumain ako ng baked mac sa CASAA at uminom ng C2. Diretso sa CBA dahil manunuod kaming tatlo (shet, kaming tatlo lang!) ng XMEN3:The last Stand... Yooon... Galing ng friendships...

Pinayagan ako ni Ate Nelia na umakyat sa tambayan dahil sabi ko,magrereminisce lang ako ng aking JPIA something... Pagdating ko sa taas, diretso sulat sa logbook, pinag-ookray mga entries ni *toot* dahil nga naiinis ako sa kanya... Ayun... So baba after that then, naghintay hanggang 1 for Micha dahil sa 99.2.

Then umulan, ano to, sign? Haha... =p Na baka hindi tumuloy... Hay... Basta...

Ayun, so hinintay ko nga si Micha... dumating si Garma at nagbabye na sa 99.2. Kamusta ka! Yay! So, baka maka-2 pa daw siya! yabang talaga... anyway, pagbigyan, VP for Liaisons e... Then dumating si Sani, pasok daw siya! Yes, congrats... then umakyat ako, di pa din tapos, baba ulit... kapagod lyf ko noh?

Then, bumaba ako ulit, naghihintay kay Micha at kay Archie... Yes, bumaba na si Micha with KC, tinanung kung tuloy pa daw, tuloy pa naman, so go na... nagbabay kami with sani at uuwi na siyang Bulacan... Then, SM north na! Woohoo....

Pag-alis ni Sani, nakita namin si Archie, haha... tapos, we decided na kain lang muna kami kasi 3:10 pa showing, e past 2 pa lang ata... so yun... Nagshare kami ni Micha sa Sumo Beef Misono, di na kumain si Archie dahil kumain na daw siya sa bahay! Yehes, diet? then, nanuod na kami, nag-insist si Archie, na mag deluxe kami, so yun, pinasubsidize namin ni Micha yung 20 php namin... haha.. pumayag naman ang loko.... hehe

Nanuod na kami, then,exag... lupet ng effects.. basta, para sa kin, may meaning ang Xmen, if you have the chance, give it all, give everything you can possibly give...narealize ko, at napatanung ako, did i gave my best to stay, given the constraints i have? i answered, maybe? gago noh?

ayun, after that, nagbonding yosi yosi si archie, e di ako yosi boy e... naglaro kami ng Pants, at mas nakakagulat pa siya kesa sa Xmen 3 effects... at yun, nagkwento about life kaming 3, at pinagusapan mga tao, haha...

then, umuwi na, hanggang ito, nagboblog na...

P.S. Sayang wala kayo... sayang. baka kasi di na maulit ito, given na di nako UP next sem.. pero okei lang, kung ayaw niyo lang, ok lang din... kung ayaw niyo kong makita, ok lang din. kung busy kayo ok lang din... Basta OK lang, OK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Haha, labo..

From being a Joshua to our Dung

2006-05-19T04:59:00.000-07:00

Naalala ko nung Stat 101 days pa natin, sobrang patawa ka... Cleiza introduced you to me... Dahil sa BacBacan epek. Sobrang di ko kilala mga JPIA apps nun... waah...anyway, di lang naman sa Stat kita namimit e... Kagroup pa kita sa apps outing with Jonz, Charm and Mark. Sobrang nagulat kami at nadulas ka nung naglaro tayo ng monkey-monkey anabelle-anabelle. Nagalit pa si Garma dahil ginamit mo yung t-shirt nia.

Then naging kalbo ka... Sobrang kamusta ka? Gumawa ka ng eksena sa challenge night... Sobrang natuwa kami dun. Tinext mo ko kinabukasan at nagpapatulong sa Stat 101. Naglakad pa tayo papuntang SAG Welcome for freshies. Hay....

Then INduction Ball. Yehes... Grumaduate tayo sa pagiging apps. Sumayaw pa tayo ng Pinoy Ako...Pishur pishur affax ulit. Saya natin nun.

Tapos 2nd sem na...magkaklase pala tayo sa 181. Tapos yung BacBacan 2 practices na inuubos yung energy natin. Tapos yung mismong BACBACAN na... Shet ang saya... Tapos yung pag-iingay natin sa tambayan... bridge and logbook... Tapos yung hindi natuloy na pagpunta natin sa SM NOrth dahil lang masakyan... :) Tapos yung Elevate naman after JPIAweek...pinaglaruan natin nila Kuya Jayjay yung malaking Screen sa Elevate. Tapos 2nd place pa tayo...

Tapos nag-RVC exam pa tayo. Bagsak naman... Leche. Tapos 99.2 results mo. 2.25 si Mark at di tayo masyado masaya sa SM North dahil dun....kinabukasan planning sem... nung third day, iyakan blues... nagbuhos ako ng nararamdaman at na-guilty ka. Sori... Nagpapikshur pa tayong lahat... Tapos huling pagkikita na natin nun.

At ngayong wala ka na, hindi alam, kung san magsisimula. Ang ngayon, bukas, kailanman, nagiba... wala nang bukas... HIndi... May bukas pa... Ang pagkikita-kita nating lahat. Ipangako mong tutuparin mo ang sinabi mo sa akin kagabi... na magkikita-kita pa tayo. :)

Dung, alam ko hindi pa tayo katindi ang closeness, pero mahirap kang kalimutan... Pare, ingat ka, at sana masaya ka diyan... :)

2006-05-18T05:40:00.000-07:00

How to make a Arcadio I. Macaldo

Ingredients:

5 parts mercy

1 part crazyiness

5 parts leadership

Method:
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little wisdom if desired!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

hayy...

2006-05-18T05:11:00.000-07:00

nalulungkot lang ako... wag niyo nang pansinin...

parang minsan, gusto ko na lang matulog at kalimutan ang lahat, parang wala na akong nakilalang tao. para at least, magpaalam man ako, wala akong taong maaalala at magbibigay sa akin ng kalungkutan.. :(

Signs

2006-05-15T03:24:00.000-07:00

I watched yesterday this entertainment show sa DOS wherein a celebrity guest stated of signs. I said to my highschool friends that she just believes on a superstition that sometimes, fail. Well, I just thought of having my sign... to keep the subtlety of my so-called "sign", I'm just gonna say it as toot...hahahaha...

I texted Jill to accompany me in calling my prof. After her forever wait for me in the FOPC tambay, she accompanied me in the different phonebooths in Vinzons. Unfortunately, the phonebooths are out of service. I told her, "destiny"? It seems my chance of staying haven't passed the 1st stage. After the endless tries in the phone booths, even in CBA, Jill bade goodbye, for she's to study for her accounting exam on Friday... Toot again.

I went to SC in an attempt to call my professor. Unfortunately, he's not home, he's out of the country. OK, so tadhana ba talaga ito? I begged for the one I conversed with to give his email address, unfortunately, he doesn't know my professor's email address. I begged again to remember and gave him my reason for calling, he stressed that Mr **** won't change his mind regarding my grade, for he already submitted it already to the administration. After an expected hope to arrive, I left SC with a broken heart.

It is final. Yes, I will be leaving UP. After the previous entry "Pamamaalam", the goodbye is very confirmed now. Again. I want to thank all the people who have made my JPIA and UP life memorable and wonderful.. Thanks for everything. It seemed that signs, after all, trigger not only possibilities, but probabilities. Haha...

P.S.: Last day na ng FOPC tambay. Hay, nakakatampo lang yung ibang tao. Buti pa mga alumni supportive. Albeit naiintindihan ko naman na mabilis ang pacing ng summer and all, and you need to study, sana kahit HA or HO, nasabi niyo lang. For the record, I have attended all the tambay days. Still I passed two Psych exams without studying and finished my exercises and report in Socio. Nag-aral nga kayo e, imposible namang hindi kayo pumasa. Buti kung accounting yan, kahit wag na kayo tumambay. Hehe... For the freshies din ito e, para ma-feel nila yung warmth na pinaramdam sa atin ng JPIA. Ayun. Ayokong mag-mention ng name, pero sige na nga. Si Jonz nga, kahit haggard na as FOPC eb, she can still study. Kayo ba? Yuck, nagtatampo lang, kasi, aalis na ko... Gusto ko man lang kayo makita for my last official week here in UP. Yun lang. Mas matatalino pa nga kayo sa akin, kung tutuusin nga ako pa ang underdog...

P.S.S.:di ako galit, nagtatampo lang... :) Godbless!

Para sa Masa

2006-05-12T23:36:00.000-07:00

Para Sa Masa
Eraserheads

Ito ay para sa mga masa
Sa lahat ng nawalan ng pag-asa
Sa lahat ng ng aming nakasama
Sa lahat ng hirap at pagdurusa

Naaalala nito pa ba
Binigyan namin kayo ng ligaya

Ilang taon na ring lumipas
Mga kulay ng mundo ay kumupas
Marami na rin ang mga pagbabago
Di maiiwasan pagkat tayo ay tao lamang

Mapapatawad mo ba ako
Kung hindi ko sinunod ang gusto mo

La la la la la la la la. . . . . .

Pinilit kong iahon ka
Ngunit ayaw mo namang sumama

Ito ay para sa mga masa
Sa lahat ng binaon ng sistema
Sa lahat ng aming nakabarkada
Sa lahat ng mahilig sa labsong at drama

Sa lahat ng di marunong bumasa
Sa lahat ng may problema sa skwela
Sa lahat ng fans ni sharon cuneta
Sa lahat ng may problema sa pera

Sa lahat ng masa
Huwag mong hayaang ganito
Bigyan ang sarili ng respeto

Para sa masa ng JPIA!

Pamamaalam

2006-05-10T04:38:00.001-07:00

Kung ang buhay ay parang isang bituin, maaaring ang akin ay dumaan sa panibagong stage ng life. Kaka-18 ko lang kahapon at para bang wala namang masyadong pinagbago... siguro dahil, masyado lang komplikado ang mga bagay-bagay sa buhay-buhay. Kahapon lamang nalaman ko ang magbibigay-hustisya sa aking desisyon... ang aking pamamaalam.Naging mala-roller coaster ride ang buhay UP ko. Di ko akalaing samu't-saring emosyon ang aking naramdaman nung ako'y nag-aral sa unibersidad na ito. Grabe. From being a stupid freshie who didn't know what his block name was, shifted to a tough course, joined a crazy organization, met new crazy and wonderful people, obtained new purposes in life, faced different obstacles (failed to some), and now, the once stupid freshie, makes a stupid goodbye... to his crazy world and crazy life.Nagpapasalamat ako unang-una sa Diyos, dahil binigyan niya ako ng pagkakataong makapag-aral sa de-kalibreng unibersidad. Dito ko natagpuan lahat ng taong humubog sa aking pagkatao ngayon. Salamat. Kahit hinarap ko ang ilang unos, at least buhay pa naman, haha...

Pangalawa, sa aking mga freshie friends: AJ, Lia, Norlyn, Mae, Rolyn, RHonda, Patricia, Emma, Kristel, Irish, charlotte, Cheng, Ria, Sheillette, Cocoy, Kareen, Aelle, Joan, Lovelyn, Dolores, Jeejay, Jolene, Nikka, Kezia, Aya, Dyan, Karlo, atbp. Salamat sa mga tawanan, kulitan, pagtambay sa CASAA minsan. Kahit parang sauna bath dun, at least nakakapagkwentuhan tayo ng walang alinlangan. Salamat sa mga kagaguhan at paghihimutok sa mga prof... Alam ko siraulo ako...wahaha.Sunod naman sa mga CBA friends, yes! Bumi-BA daw. Si Toni, Kim, Jem, Cara, KC, atbp. Salamat at kahit wala akong kaibigang taga-BA talaga, anjan kayo at nabulag makipag-kaibigan sa akin. Go groupmates in CWTS!

Ayoko talagang gawin na ito... ang sakit-sakit para sa akin, pero sige...SA JPIA, ang kauna-unahan at kahuli-hulihang organisasyong sinalihan ko. Salamat sa lahat ng mga tao:

EOS 47: Salamat sa pagkakataong binigay niyo sa akin upang patunayan ang aking mga kakayahan:

Kuya JayJay: El Presidente! sana mapatawad mo ko sa gagawin kong ito. Mahal ko ang JPIA, pero hanggang dito na lang talaga.
Kuya Mak: ang peyborit VP ko. Joke lang yung di kita peyborit. Gago ka kasi e. lagi mo kong pinapatawa. You made each one of us special, by being a special child, hehe, este pig, joke! Sori kung after you graduated, aalis na din ako... :(
Ate Iris: ang aking mahal na VP sa Exte. Salamat at binigyan mo ako ng pagkakataong ipakita ang aking kakayahan. Naniwala ka sa akin, kahit ako'y hindi naniwala sa kung ano man ang meron ako. Sori at aalis ako sa Exte! Mahal na mahal ko ang Exte. Kinupkop nio ako kahit ganito ako...
Ate Aimee: Yes, ang pinakakorni na VP! JOke lang. Master, salamat sa mga hellweek wishes. Nabawasan yung pagiging mahiyain ko... Mejo loud na ko ngayon! Haha... Sori, nawala na yung pagiging JPIAN ko dahil sa akin din.
Ate Marj: Da strongest VP: figuratively and literally, hehe.. :) Ikaw talaga yung hinahangaan ko kapag mga complicated and stressful cases... Galing mo talaga! :))
Ate Crystle: Ang pinaka-pulang VP! Alam mo na yun. Sana, mapatawad mo ako sa pag-iwan ko sa JPIA.. humihingi ako ng sori talaga... :(
Ate OWen: Ang may eternal ang energy na VP! Sobrang cute na cute kami sayo sa mga hirit mo minsan. Ikaw yung kauna-unahang EO na nakita ko...since then, I wanna be a JPIAn!

Sa mga alumni:

Ange, atbp and pepper ANie,Nenok,.: Jenny Gaje, Rach, Mela, Buls, Roma: Sori kung binigo ko kayo dahil sa pag-alis ko na ito... Ipinapangako ko namang, mamahalin ko ang JPIA, katulad ng pagmamahal nio dito. Pangako!

Ate Nhey, ang chicken little ng JPIA. salamat sa Ultimate Bonding experience sa SM north. sobrang nanghihinayang ako at nung mag-eend lang ng 2nd tayo naging close... sori din at iiwanan ko na ang JPIA.
Kuya Jan, Elay, Nellie, GIlda! Exte pipol... patawarin nio ko at iiwanan ko ang exte at jpia... patawad!

Janrich, ang aking peyborit na JPIAn.sori at binigo kita sa desisyon kong ito....
Ate Jik (MATET): Sori kung binigo kita sa desisyong ito. Alam ko, nangako akong magpapaka-active forever epek sa JPIA. Pero binigo kita. Sori Sponsor... patawarin mo ko...

EOS 48: Patawarin nio kong lahat:(payagan nio kong mag-planning sem ha!)
Roger: beloved chair and president... patawarin mo ko at aalis na ko ng JPIA. kahit kelan, hindi ako nagduda sa kakayahan mo..slamat sa lahat... sori talaga.
Richard:Yes! nagsasalita na... Sori kung aalis din ako at iiwan ko JPIA...mapatawad mo sana ako...
Manu: Sori kung nung EB application ay ininjan kita... patawad at aalis ako ng JPIA..pero may tiwala ako sa kakayahan niong lahat!

Lawrence:Sori kung aalis ako ha..salamat sa pangchochola sakin nung planning sem at mga makabuluhan at di-makabuluhang mga salita... sobrang salamat
Kristy:ang malupet na VP at oble pa!C'mon? sobrang salamat sa pagiging kausap minsan at pagchola sa kin... Walanghiya ka! Joke lang... patawad at aalis na ko ng JPIA.
Garma:ang extrovert at cliquish na VP ng Liaisons... joke lang... sobrang mamimiss ko yung mga hirit mo at alam kong magagalit ka sa pag-alis mo... hayaan mo, ipagdadasal ko ang pagbalik ni JOSH. Alam mong di ako nagduda sa desisyon mo kahit nahuli ang pagtakbo mo... ok lang yan... galingan nio sa BACBACAN at ELEVATE ha! :)
Janno:sori... sori... sori... iiwanan ko na ang exte... patawarin mo ako... sobrang gusto kitang makatrabaho... dahil mahal ko talaga ang exte... sori at iniwan ko kayo sa ere.... Kelanman, di ako nagduda sa yo... wala akong pakialam sa mga ngwa mo nun, ang importante, handa kang maglingkod... sobrang humihingi ako ng patawad.

JUNIORS and TERMINALS:
Joyce, JOvanne, Marves, Berna, Steph, Vincent, Jeona, Abby Wu,Pete, Pinky, Maila, Star at Baj:dami nio, shet... Sobrang patawad at aalis na ko... sobrang pasalamt ako at inalalayan nio kami sa JPIA... LIca, chola ka...salamat sa pakikinig sa problema ko... cno b crush mo? HUmihingi din ako ng sori.. dahil sa mga nasabi ko nung planning sem... sori at aalis nko ng JPIA... mahal ko kayong lahat..
Terminals, KC tanda, Chad, JB, Eric, Trek, Lotte, others:salamat sa pagiging mga KUya, at ATE... Pasensya na kung sa ganitong uri ako magpapaalam... patawarin nio ko...

BATCHMATES: ang sakit para sa akin...sobrang hirap...with jaz 1 yr ng pagsma-sma, sa gn2 lng mgttpos, alagaan nio JPIA ha!:)

Cleiza, Lyn, Brad, Charis, Acris, Ria, Lloyd, Lavinia, Sarah, Romina, Ailene, presto, Aica, RJ others:paka-active kayo ha...sarap maging JPIAn... sori at iiwanan ko kayo ng ganito lamang...
Marlowe, Kat M, Genesis, Nikki, Jed:mga oble ng batch... humahanga ako sa inyo... you've taken d chlnge..genesis, magpaka-actib ka nga...para sa akin...sori at iiwanan ko kayo ng ganito... mahalin nio ang JPIA...Jed salamat sa pakikinig sa lahat ng problema ko... sobrang iba ka talga! mahal ko ang JPIA, mahalin niyo ha! :)
Hazel, Stan,Sani, MIlcah, OLiver, Kaye, Jen,MJ, ANbu:salamat sa JPIA memories,sobrang nagpapasalamat ako at nakilala ko kayong lahat... active kayo dapat ha!
JIll de Dumo:thnks for the frendship...salamat sa lahat ha, kahit ganito ako, natanggap mo... sori at iiwanan ko kayo sa JPIA ng ganun lamang.

Yes, D2 and hyperlinks gang: JOnz, Joshua,Archie, MarkB.,Leo,Micha,Charm,Anna,Jean, KC, sino pa ba?

Jonz, salmat sa pagiging Enerva girl... lupet mo... ingatan mo ang JPIA!Kapag dumating ang future, VP ka ha! haha...
Josh, Balik ka na... Kelangn bumalik ka, madaming naghihintay sa yo...
Archie, kagulat ka,may somtng k pla e... salamt sa pangbabara at pagiging conscious whenever you do it... hahaha
Micha, ang overall extra-curricular activities girl... ingatan mo ang exte ha!mahal ko kayong lahat!
Charm, beauty and brains.. yes... paka-active ha
KC, mga lashu mo ko dear lines mo,, pagpatuloy mo. para yung mga apps, maging at home, katulad nating lahat!
Jean and Anna, da inseparable pair: lagi nio kong pinapahanga on how you balance things. grabe.. mahalin nio ang jpia ha!
Leo, galingan mo na ha!pilitin mong mag4yrs ha!
Mark B., the stocky guy... kahit binabara mo ko, leche ka! joke....nagpapasalamat ako at napakafrendly mo..alagaan mo sana ang mga kaibigan natin at ang JPIA...VP ka ha...yikee...sori sa planning sem at sa mga sinabi ko non...masyado lang akong nadala.. iiwanan ko kayo ng ganito lang, patawarin nio sana ako...

batchmates, tayo ang mag-aalaga sa JPIA!mahalin natin ang JPIa, dhl minahal tayo nito. wag kayong mag-eb dahil napipilitan kayo or wat (including dahil sa aking posibilidad na pag-alis), kundi dahil gusto nio magserve.

Exte pips, (jimson,addie,cy,dk,boiboi,jhoa,rj,joan,ray,yem)pangako!babalik ako!

bye JPIA...mahal na mahal na kita!

Its so-called official

2006-05-07T00:00:00.000-07:00

Waah, can't put here the details, but I hope this entry makes sense...

Thanks guys for everything... YOu made me a better person. When there are times lethargy permeates my systems, you are always there to resucitate my dull feelings. You helped me to realize how wonderful it is to look forward in each morning... I hope you all give more smile to more people...coz I know you all can do it.

THanks for everything... Salamat talaga... Kahit man lamang dito ay makapagpahayag ako ng aking damdamin...

Split second thoughts while daydreaming on a hot day in summer...

2006-05-04T08:32:00.000-07:00

What if you only have 2 weeks to live? What if you only have 2 weeks to cherish everything that you have?What if you only have 2 weeks to enjoy your loved ones' company? WHat if you have only 2 weeks to share your life with your closest friends? What if you only have 2 weeks to dream? What if you only have 2 weeks to enjoy your fantasies, your favorite TV shows and even your meal? What if this thought will be only repeated (if you want) for only two weeks?

What if?

What if you only have 2 weeks to listen to your favorite music? What if you only have 2 weeks to endure the academic stress in your college life? What if you only have 2 weeks to watch, to be left behind while you are walking with your friends after watching/eating your favorite meals? What if you only have 2 weeks of secretly admiring the person you love? What if?

What if?...you only have 2 weeks to decide for your life and to say goodbye?

5 days of contemplation...

2006-04-20T01:46:00.000-07:00

Last week has been a blast for me. It has been one of the toughest weeks in my life. I have been situated into a dilemma wherein I have to think critically, or else, everything fails.

What will you if you have only little time left to be with the ones that you love? What will you do if you should place yourself in a position that will definitely destroy yourself so just everything will fall into place? What will you do?

I have been walking on a very long road. Walking as if this road has no end. Walking as if time and space collided into one and run in a continuum. Walking as if there's no tomorrow. Walking as if there's no goodbye...

I have been thinking so many possible things that might happen. And all, I firmly believe, will definitely hurt me. All, will definitely let me give up something, someone, everyone. Or is it?

I have read a scripture in the Bible, and it states: "Fear not, the Lord will help you". At first, I believed that everything will go on smoothly... I believed that everything would turn out fine, as it definitely should be. But then...

Now, after 5 days of contemplation... still I don't have any firm decision yet... Let's leave it to fate.

3 and a half Hours of saying thank you and goodbye...

2006-03-26T02:12:00.000-08:00

March 22, 2006... Wednesday...The Tribute... some JPIA oldies told me before this activity is one of the best ever in the myriad of JPIA activities. Now i know why. This is because some of our beloved graduating JPIAns will be given of a simple tribute by their respective committees. As part of the Exte EB, of course, I have the task to make this activity to the zenith of my capabilities be memorable to them. However, I think that the juniors (Addie, DK and Boiboi) already made our presentation. So there...

The Tribute was held at Shangri-La West Ave. I believe it has lasted for 3 and a half hours. That 3 and a half hours made me realize that being a part of this organization is really wonderful, coz my heart has been filled with wonderful memories whom I shared with these people who are, sadly, graduating. Everyone's been giving their best to make this event possible, especially the MEMCOM EBs, the facilitator of the activity. TRIBUTE was a very big success...

The program was started by of course, dinner... WHoa... the viands were great, albeit I had to help first Roger (the new president) and my fellow co-Chairs with our Exte tribute. There has been a difficulty with regards to the video, according to Boiboi "3 years pa yan". Addie followed: "Hinihimas-himas pa namin yan ni DK, sabi namin, kaya mo yan,sige pa". I laughed because Boiboi is panicking already. That's why we waited until it has been finished. While waiting, I left them to eat coz my stomach is already aching. I savored the food, haha (patay-gutom)... leche, magtatagalog na nga lang ako...

Ayun, nagstart na din yung committee presentations. Una yung PEP, tributing Anie, Daryl, Carlo, and of course VP Owen. Sabi nga ni Jeff, wag daw muna silang pumunta ng SM north, dahil dun binili yung tokens, mga tsinelas... hahaha... then yung MEMCom... grabe, I love the presentation.. lupit ng flash... at may tribute pa sila sa TT corp... ang PP corp na daw ang bahala (composed of Jean, Anna, and KC, ang ayaw pabalikin ni Jeff sa PEP). tinanong ko si jean kung bakit PP, she simply answered "ano ba ang kapartner ng TT, diba PP?" grabe labo. then sunod na nagtribute ang FINANCE. Graduation song ni Vitamin C ang kanilang theme song. Then ang INFOPUB. wala me ma-say. then kami na... nakakatuwa ang tribute namin... video. After that, binigay namin yung tokens, guess what, halaman... fortune plant for the boys, cactus for the girls. after that bigay tribute kami kay Ate Iris, our beloved VP. Kinanta namin ay JOurney. Naiyak si Addie at Iris after that, pinigilan ko lang yung iyak ko..haha.. Then nagsori si BOiboi sa hindi pagkakalagay ni Elay sa video.. naiyak siya kasi naguiguilty siya,pero kinomfort naman siya ni Elay. Di daw siya nagalit... ;p den anf E&R naman yung nag-tribute. hay, natapos yung mga committee presentations. Then, nagtribute ang mga committe/adhoc chairs sa mga EOs. ang mga tarpaulins with their pix yung binigay nila with the song In My Life ata or Graduation song ulit. then ang LEAP ang nagtribute kila Kuya Jay at ROma. GO Leap, grabe, nakakatuwa yung presentation nila... powepoint na umiikot yung word na leap...hahaha... ;p

Then, ang mga EOs may special presentation... Kinanta nila yung experiences naming lahat sa JPIA dun sa kanta na "Sa Lahat" or something, i dont know the title e. Nakakaiyak talaga... sobrang nakakatouch...

After that, inacknowledge yung mga new set of EOs. Roger, President;Richard, VP for Internals; Janno, VP for Externals; Manu, VP for InfoPub; Lawrence, VP for Finance; Myo, VP for E&R; and Jeff, VP for LIaison. i was so happy coz finally, complete na ang roster ng JPIA EOs. Now, I can say that UP JPIA is "politically stable". hehehehe

After that, ay ang walang kamatayang picture taking. Umupo kaming lahat sa stairs, at ngumiti forever. Then, ang mga pagpapaalam... Waah... TRIBUTE is really one of the best JPIA memories I ever had... Bye graduating students, thank YOU for sharing with me your lives... :)

This is my identity...wahehe

2006-03-21T22:31:00.000-08:00

ARCADIO --

[noun]:

A real life muppet

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

A	Accurate
R	Responsible
C	Charming
A	Appealing
D	Dysfunctional
I	Influential
O	Organic

M	Mesmerizing
A	Ambitious
C	Complicated
A	Adventurous
L	Lively
D	Desperate
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Why an accounting exam does bring different emotions to people? by Jon Macaldo

2006-03-19T07:03:00.000-08:00

Post ni Jon sa blog nya..

Kapag taga-UP ka, ano ba ang pipiliin mong course?

Sabi sa akin ng aking prof sa accounting, before the specie of BS Nursing came, BS Business Administration and Accountancy was the most in-demand course in the UP. Not only it has the longest word among the other courses in UP Diliman, it is also (hindi naman sa pag-aangat ng bangko) one of the hardest courses offered in the university. Unlike in other universities, they offer a 4-year accounting course, with just fewer management subjects, including law, finance, statistics and economics. But in UPD, hindi lang mga pamatay na accounting subjects ang meron. Tinadtad din ng management subjects, feasibility, finance, law, statistics, economics and even algebra with trigonometry and calculus subjects!!!! Kamuzta naman talaga... I thought, due to my aunt's stories during her college life as an accounting student, accounting is very, very EASY. But no! I was very very wrong. BA 99.1 pa lang, pamatay na... at sabi ng upper batches, pag mahal na mahal mo daw ang math, lagot ka na sa accounting! Ewan talaga…

Bakit ang accounting ng UP napakahirap? Sabi nila, this course tests us how will we perform in the so-called "real life". E anong tawag dito sa buhay na to? Fake? Peke ba yung paghihirap mo sa almost 3 and a half hours na exam na kulang na kulang na, tapos di ka pa sigurado kung papasa ka? I don't think so. Peke ba yung mga nararamdaman mong emosyon sa tuwing mag-eexam ka ng accounting? I don't think so. Para sa akin, accounting tests our ability to see life as how it is presented no pretensions, no hesitations. Diba ganun naman talaga? Sa accounting, kung naghesitate kang magsagot sa tamang formula dahil natatakot kang mag-try or i-test ang shortcut, laos ka na. Para sa akin, hindi lang ang pagkuha ng 2.75 (though ito ang target mo para BAA ka till pip year) ang dahilan kung bakit kelangan mong mag-aral ng mabuti. Walang kuwenta ang pag-aaral mo, kung hindi ka naman magtitiwala sa sarili mo. Wala ding kuwenta ang lipovitan, gatorade at ilang milyong taong pagbabasa sa IAS at kung anu-ano pa man. Di baleng matanggal ka sa wanwanpor nang lumalaban at umiisip ng paraan kung pano siya magulangan kesa mag-drop at natatakot ma-tres or singko. Me rason bako?

YUP, nag-shift ako sa BAA…dahil akala ko ito ang destiny ko. Maging accountant. Minsan tinatanong ko ang sarili ko kung tama ba ang desisyon ko. Nasilaw lang ba ako sa perang maihahatid ng BSBAA kung nakapasa ako ng board o dahil gusto ko talaga siya? Hindi ba valid na reason na gusto mo siya dahil gusto mong makatulong sa pamilya mo by bringing an income to them? Hay...

Why an accounting exam brings different emotions to people? Marahil marami tayong rason. Siguro dahil sa pressure ng scholarship, pamilya, friends, pati na rin ang sarili mo. Pwede din ang society dahil ina-assume mo na natanggal ka sa BAA dahil tanga ka or in a euphemisim, you’re a lesser person na maaaring tingin sayo ng lipunan. MALAKING KALOKOHAN ang lahat ng mga ito!!!! Natanggal ka dahil ayaw mo na... ayaw mo nang maging BSBAA. Ayaw mo na ng puyatan nang wala namang masyadong reward... ewan talaga sa’yo… peace talaga... it's just my opinion... .=) - by Jon Macaldo (2nd Year BS BAA, JPIA Member, Exte Co-chair)

Sagot Ko...

believe it or not Jon, maraming mga tao ang gustung-gusto magstay sa BS BAA program pero hindi na pwede dahil mismong ang kolehiyo na ang nagtanggal sa kanila.

Lalo na kasi pagdating sa 114. Mapapansin mo na sobrang hindi directly related ang number of hours devoted to studying sa grade na makukuha mo sa exam. At lalong hindi rin inversely related ang number of hours ng tulog sa grade sa exam. Maraming mga tao ang totoong ibinigay nila ang lahat para pumasa sa 114. Maraming mga tao ang hindi lang dugo, pawis at tulog ang sinakripisyo para lang pumasa. Marami sa amin, halos wala nang social life o family life dahil sa accounting. Pero ayun, matapos ang lahat ng kaputahan na naganap... natanggal pa rin sa BS BAA.

Pero sobrang totoo na hindi porket tanggal sa BS BAA ay mahina na. Hindi ako naniniwala dun. May mga tao kasi na hindi lang talaga para sa accounting. Para lang din yang pagkanta o pagsayaw, may mga bagay na hindi talaga sadyang hindi ka lang talaga magaling kahit ano pa ang gawin mo. Pero hindi ito isang kawalan. Leche... Accounting lang yan! There's more to life than BA 99.1, 99.2, 114, 116, 118 and 123. (Haha... but then again, life in college is all about these 6 subjects!) - by Chad. =)

Realizations sa buhay-buhay

2006-03-19T06:41:00.000-08:00

hay... sobrang andami na palang nangyari sa buhay ko, ngayon pa lang me nag-update...been busy with acads, jpia, love? joke...

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una sa lahat, nagpapasalamat ako sa lahat ng pumunta sa project ng exte, ang SLW at pasablood... sobrang saya ko nung nanjan yung mga jpians na nakigulo sa SLW. sa mga hindi pumunta, sayang, di niyo nakita si MAXIMO OLIVEROS jr, wahehe...

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pasablood, give blood! sayang di me nakadonate coz that day, may panpil12. baka makatulog ako ulit at mapaalis sa room! that's why di me nakapag-donate... tska may binabasa kasi me readings so di na me makapag-donate... nagui-guilty talaga ako...

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naku, nagalit sa amin ang prof namin sa accounting... sabi niya kasi, he's disappointed with our quizzes... maswerte pa daw kami sa mga batang nagagala... waah, mas swerte sila... kasi wala silang accounting, hehe... =p

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anyway, lapit na pala case presentation namin sa 181. grabe, kinakabahan ako dahil 1st case ko to ever sa BA.. so go groupmates (kat,nikki,cleiza,mike)!

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sawi ako sa pag-ibig... di ko alam... akala ko dati, crush lang, pero habang tumatagal, parang nare-realize kong mahal ko na siya... nasasaktan ako kung minsan ay.. basta.... i can't discuss...

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i just love living! wahehe

saka na me mag-uupdate ng keser, swear... me follow-up ako na entry... dating entry sa blog na to pero nabura kasi sa katangahan ko... with reaction pa from kuya chad, wahehe... sige, nyt! :)

i know what you did last saturday... mwahahaha

2006-03-07T05:18:00.000-08:00

Our group went last Saturday to MBC to continue our computer literacy program. After a bumping ride of jeepney to MBC, we waited until 11 am to initiate the endeavor. While waiting, we decided to interview some of the boys, who will be the beneficiaries of our solicitations. I haven’t decided at first who will I pick because Toni, our group leader, said that all the boys in the room where the kind lady has offered to us were already been interviewed. So, I decided to pick the first boy who entered and to have a one-on-one, intimate chat with him. That lucky boy was Dennis.

Dennis V. Lingganay, a 15 year-old lanky boy from Ormoc, Leyte was my interviewee. He seemed nice and quiet, because he didn’t talk that much. I remembered him from the February 24 Computer Literacy Program that we have implemented. Yes, he smiled, but he seldom talk. He laugh, but he never mingled. So I was bothered. Even to my interview with him.

When I asked why he is now in MBC, he replied “Kasi wala kaming bahay po. Dito na lang kami pinag-aral ng nanay ko”. I was shocked and amused, for their parents (he has a brother with him, his name is Danilo) have risked the distance just to give them education. I told him, “Bakit kayo lang dalawa, ilan ba kayong magkakapatid”? He replied, “Kaming dalawa lang talaga e”. With that, I inferred, with the poverty obstructing our rights, our freedom to choose what we want, is really a big issue. Now that there are political issues continuing to emerge, the Philippine politicians should give emphasis more to the marginalized and poor Filipinos. The irony of life is really bemusing. What they have promised to their platforms, well, is not emerging now.

When I asked about his dreams, he really wanted to soar high: “Gusto kong maging engineer, kahit anong klase. O kaya maging NBA or PBA player”. That gave me an assurance that despite of his financial ineptness, he has dreams which he can pursue and continue to live on.

We just have a short time to talk. Maybe I don’t look approachable. Blame my genes.

ELEV86:LIFT ONE ANOTHER UP

2006-03-01T18:15:00.000-08:00

Haay, ang saya ng Elevate6: Lift one another up. wheew, after so-called 2 days ng practice, successful naman siya...hehehe... ang mismong competition yung naging "run-through" namin. Shet. Buti nalang ang determined ng dancers (Owen, Jeff, Lica, Anie, Jonz, Archie, Cleiza, Jenny Gaje, Hans, Kristy, Micha, Marves, Leo, Joyce), lifters and spotters (ako, JayJay, Jubs, Mela, Mark Banawa, Brian Bauza, Mads at Janno) at sa mga JPIAns na pumunta... sori kung sino man kayo, thank you talaga.... :)

Okay naman ang kinalabasan ng Elevate... I mean kung ie-expect mo sa routine niyo na walang matinong praktis, sobrang ok nung kinalabasan namin... hehe...hindi sa pagbubuhat ng bangko o kung ano man, ang routine namin ay maayos... sumobra lamang ng 17 seconds sa required time, dahil na din sa delay sa lifts... yung lift 1 ko... ok siya... pagdating ng 2nd lift, waaah, nabangag ako... kaya nag-twist yung paa ni Ate Anie at nalift ko gamit ang 1 kamay lang... ayun...pangit diba? so HINABOL ko kaya okay pa naman... kaso pagkatapos, medyo nagka-cramps siya at nagsori naman ako... hehehe...

Hindi naman namin nakita yung mga nag-perform nang buo kasi tensyonado na kami... siya nga pala, ang kalaban naman namin ay ang IE club, at Cheerdance class...guess kung pang-ilan kami?

SECOND PLACE! COMEON! 15THOUSAND WORTH OF CASH(12THOU) TSAKA 3THOU BAMBINI PRODUCTS... YEHES!
Hindi naman ako nagyayabang...tuwang-tuwa ako dahil na-realize naming lahat na kahit may mga problema, basta unified ang JPIA, ok ang results, nomattawhat... diba? GO JPIA!

I think more than the prize, the ELEVATE is coveted by some organizations to prove how unified their organization is, as the UP PEP SQUAD is. I think, we have proven enough... :)

La Lang

2006-02-26T05:58:00.000-08:00

Testingggggg...woohhh... galing... hahaha

Waahh...

2006-02-26T04:38:00.000-08:00

Waaaahhh, binura ko blog ko...pero inulit ko ulit,hehehe....watch out, this blog will be something... :)